Thursday’s incredible welcome

Happy Thursday everyone!

How are you all doing? One more school day. One more workday. I don’t know about all you, but I’m excited for the weekend.

John and I are going to spend some quality time together and it’s very much needed. Tonight’s blog will be short again. Time escaped me today. John and I did enjoy going over to Grandma Sandy’s for dinner. It’s been a hot moment since I’ve been able to cook John a nice hot meal with all the fixings. With no kitchen, we are improvising and it’s not always the greatest of dinners.

We had a stuffed chicken with some amazing, yummy wild rice, a salad and some amazing veggies. Sandy wanted to send the leftovers home with me, but I told her with no microwave to keep it and I’ll come over tomorrow and heat it up and serve it to John and Grant.

We had a wonderful visit. It was nice to sit and relax.

This morning while driving, God gifted me the opportunity to enjoy his creation on incredible levels. I’ve been pouring my heart out to God and asking for his direction. Our management company for our home isn’t communicating. They haven’t even begun work here. My home is in a shambles and while we are making the best of it, I miss my little coffee lounge. I miss my kitchen. I miss my dining room. I miss normal.

John kindly pointed out to me yesterday that I’m all over the place with my thoughts. He thinks because my iron levels are near nothing and my other counts are all wonky, he’s convinced it’s causing me to be off mentally.

I worked with my therapist today for an hour. She’s awesome. She helps ground me and more importantly, she helps me come to terms with what I have control over and what I don’t. She helped me see that over the course of my life I’ve hidden so much hurt and betrayal. I’ve buried abuse. I’ve avoided memories of having my voice suppressed. I was basically born into a culture where I grew up believing that higher education is a SIN. Questioning things meant you were weak in your faith. As a woman, if you talk without being spoken too, you were not in subjection to your husband and worse than that, you weren’t in align with God’s arrangement of things. Woman were to speak only when spoken too.

I appreciated having Dr. Gomez today. Again, I listened intently to Mel Robbins and in the podcast, I listened to, she was on the same page as my therapist. Don’t let emotions rule your life. I’ll go into that more on another blog.

Today I asked God for a sign. I asked him for a clear sign and in the podcast, Mel said as an example of how to handle the emotion of fear. “Acknowledge the fear. Accept the fear. Now move!”

So, she wasn’t talking per say about literally moving, but I’ll explain more hopefully in my next blog.

When Mel said, “accept the fear, now move!” That was my answer.

I spoke with Aunt Billie. This incredible 100-year-old lady said to me, “little girl, you’re in the driver’s seat. Take a couple of days to sort out your thoughts, then move forward. Your John is a strong man, and he’s got you. Give it to him.”

While Aunt Billie wants me to give my fears to John, I am also giving them to Him. I’m giving them to God. I feel he gave me clarity today with the way Mel Robbins said in her podcast to move. Aunt Billie said to take a couple of days, then move forward. I think this is my answer. John and I need to spend this weekend weighing out all our options, then we need to move forward on whatever choice we choose and simply, keep going. We have to stop second guessing over and over again the choice we choose.

I believe wholeheartedly that God gave me this incredible morning welcome. The clouds and sky have a story to tell. They have answers within their formations. They are strong, unique and full of ever-changing life.

This morning while looking up to heaven I could see His power. I saw His compassion. I saw His light coming through. He’s with me, He’s absolutely with me.

John prays for strength and understanding. I can’t grasp how that will help me, so I pray for guidance and direction. His answers were not only in the clouds, but in the things I so happen to run across and listen too. I am blessed.

Below are some photos of my morning gift. I hope you enjoy them as much as I did.

I’d love for you to leave me a comment and tell me if you can feel His power within the gift of His glorious clouds. Tell me if you can see a story or find answers to your questions in the formation of the sky. I’d love some feedback.

Photos below:

Look closely at this photo. Can you see two people leaning forward for a makeup kiss?

Well guys, my eyes are beginning to droop. Tomorrow’s another early day. I’m off to bed.

Thank you for stopping by and please, never forget: Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs.