Launching

Happy Saturday evening,

How is everyone doing? Did you enjoy your day? Do anything exciting? Shoot me a text or drop me a comment, I always love hearing from you.

Today was a good day for me. John and I went to look at a couple houses. We did find one we really liked, a lot! But it’s not within our means. Sure, we could make it work, but that’s not the way to go about acquiring a new home.

I think after looking at another house we are embracing the mindset of being happy with what we have. We are working on accepting where the journey is taking us. The journey of having our current home in a state of hot mess. We are working on living in the moment because we never know when this moment will fade.

John and I love lake life. We love the home we have. We enjoy the countless hours we spend together out on our balcony or on our patio enjoying the sunsets. When we walk into our home, even with the containment up, it still feels like home. When I go out to water my garden, I’m happy. When I clean my home, I’m happy. When I get time alone in the loft, I’m happy. When John and I sit on our couch watching a movie, I’m happy.

Happiness has been found here in our home. It’s not perfect, but we love it. I love all my hummingbirds that come to feed. I love watching the little ones at the park running and playing with their siblings, family and friends. I enjoy seeing fathers and sons fishing off the rocks. I love seeing all the boats anchor on the beach. I enjoy watching families and friends come together to enjoy a day at the beach and on the lake. I enjoy falling asleep to the endless lake view. I embrace waking up to the sound of the lake.

Lake life has become a part of me, of us. I can imagine a long life here. I can see my future grand babies growing up with all the golf cart parades and holiday activities. My oldest son talks about buying a home here in the lake. He prefers to be right on the lake and I pray he gets that someday soon.

John and I have talked about moving away to a retirement community. We’ve dreamed of living out our days here and we’ve thought of everything in between.

John talked with his parents today and I think they’ve helped ground him again. You know that feeling you get when you are struggling to do what’s right for your family. You can’t figure out what’s best. You’re kind of in a state of unknown. I think this is where John and I have been. Big John said to us today, don’t stress. Just relax and take things one day at a time. Mina reminded us that our children are all close by. She also reminded us of how much we love time with them. She also reminded us of how much we love our home and our community.

I think with their wisdom and kind words we’ve been able to ground ourselves again. John and I have always tried to live with the mind set of letting go and letting God. We just need to be reminded from time to not only keep this attitude, but embrace it fully.

So much is going on right now. We’ve felt the heaviness of being burdened. We’ve felt the weight of uncertainty. Now, it’s time to do our best to give it to Him.

I love the following quote:

Wherever we’re meant to be is where we’ll land. It’s a belief I must hold onto. With my health and C-PTSD, I need to not take on more then I can handle, both physically and mentally. I need to go back to spending time in prayer and supplication. I need to return to my friendships and helping others.

Isn’t it amazing how when we are in a state of uncertainty or facing difficulties, amazing things seem to be right around the corner, ready to happen? When we focus on doing His will, we are better equipped to help others. It’s then that we see a shift in our attitude. We also notice a change in our situation.

John and I are at a standstill as far as what we do next. So, we will continue to work hard and we will continue to be in service to others. We will continue to be on the lookout for signs from above and while we wait, we love life. We love each other. We love our family and friends. We step up when we can. We will be good, kind and loving neighbors. We will show others empathy, love and compassion. We will live the best life we can each and every day. We will appreciate the little things. We will embrace the struggles knowing there is always something better on the other side of difficultly.

Nobody ever promised any of us a smooth life. Learning comes from lessons and challenges. Hard work generally pays off. Maybe not in the way we expect it to, but in the way He sees fit for us.

Dreaming is a wonderful thing.

I dream every day that He will use me in a way to change the world for the better. I pray He will give me opportunities to help others. I want to be an inspiration for women to be the best they can be. I want to rid myself of the fears within me and rise to every occasion He gives me. I want to reach for the stars and be all I can be in His glory.

I am a writer. I am a dreamer. Dreaming is never a waste of time. Dreaming is merely tomorrows realities waiting to happen. When we dream we are planting the seed of our future.

I’m not sure where my future lies. I’m not sure I’m supposed to know. With ever struggle I’ve faced in this life. With every choice I’ve made, I’ve learned a lesson. I’ve also learned He’s always right there to carry me through. Even in my darkest moments I’ve always been taken care of. He’s walked beside me or in front of me to take my hand and carry me through. He’s walked behind me to catch me when I knew I was failing and falling. My faith should be stronger then it is and I will continue to work on that every day.

We have a guarantee of one absolute. We will die. Our life will eventually come to an end. So it’s best we don’t sit around and waste time on things that are completely out of our control.

Let Him launch us into where we need to be in His time. We might as well accept what we can’t control. Give it to Him. Give Him everything and I’m pretty sure, He’ll always be there to embrace us and carry us through.

Live life to the fullest. Enjoy the journey. Be the best we can be and always be kind to others. We never know what someone is going through in their life.

Well guys, I’m off to bed.

Sleep well. Sleep tight.

Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs.