Friday Frenzy

Happy Friday evening,

How is everyone doing on this fabulous Friday? What a week. I don’t know about you, but I am certainly ready for the weekend. I’m extra excited because John is accompanying me to a writers conference tomorrow. My first one ever and while I’m nervous, I’m even more excited. What about you guys? What are your plans for this weekend? Shoot me a text or drop me a comment, I would love to hear from you.

So yeah, tomorrow I will be attending my first ever writers conference and I am beyond grateful that John will be taking me. First, the drive is about and hour and a half for me, so he’s going to handle the driving. I still get panic attacks especially in unfamiliar areas. Second, John used to run his own conferences for his work, so he’s familiar with how they work and he has a general idea of what I could expect. While I can talk to just about anyone, I still get a little intimidated when in large groups and crowds. They do tend to overwhelm me at times, well, most of the time. Once I become comfortable it’s easier for me to just meld into my surroundings. John is very comfortable in these sorts of situations and like I said, I am beyond grateful and excited that he will be taking me.

This week has been super busy. While I haven’t really written much, I have delved into reading and listening to my books. I’ve also done quite a bit of crafting this week and I had two doctors appointments. Holy heck, since I didn’t see any of my doctors over the last 2 1/2 months, I’m making up for it this month. I had my procedure last week. I haven’t received any results as of yet. In fact, the only thing I received was a notice saying that I need to follow up with a specialist. I am definitely keeping my mind busy and trying not to overthink this. I see the specialist Wednesday this coming week.

I started back with therapy this past Thursday. I really like my new therapist. She’s actually a survivor of the cult in which I escaped from. I appreciate how she can relate to certain words and terms used by the cult and I especially appreciate how she is compassionate about certain triggers in my life. I think we’re a good fit. We’ll be starting something called EMDR therapy on Friday. I’m intrigued to see what this is and all I can do is work with the program and work extra hard with the process.

It’s funny, after my session with her yesterday I received an out of the blue text from my ex. He claims to still be a heavy follower of the cult and I was shocked to get his message. I had him blocked for the last year. I guess when you upgrade to a new phone there’s a chance that numbers can become unblocked when you transfer them from one phone to another. That’s the only explanation I have for getting his random message.

It wasn’t nice, not even a little. Not a hello. No how are you. No hey there. All I got was “I paid you off. You got a huge settlement. Your a thief. I hope our kids see the person you are.”

Now mind you, he and I met a little over a year ago with our oldest son. My ex promised me and my son that if I signed off he would never bother me again regarding finances. He promised to only contact me should he need to discuss our sons, which by the way are grown. I naively hoped we could have an amicable divorce and move on and be friends or at least friendly with each other when we are needing to be in the same circle of life. For example, our one son will be getting married next May. It really would be nice to not have any added stressors and get along. Nope, I don’t see that in our cards. As for me, I can ignore him. Him on the other hand, he has to get the last word in. Yeah, I see him being inappropriate and saying things just to get back at me. My ex is never wrong. He’s always the victim and money is his god.

My ex has his own cross to bear when it comes time for his judgement at the end of his life and I have mine. I am actually very proud of myself for as far as I’ve come. That man controlled ever aspect of my life and now he doesn’t. I did allow him to get into my head for a few hours yesterday and that’s it. Believe me, that’s pretty good for me. It bothers me that he made the comment “I hope our kids see the person you are.” He didn’t mean that as a compliment, however, I agree with him. I do hope my kids see the person I am and when they do, they’ll see I’m not a thief. I have not stolen anything from him. On the contrary, he’s stolen from me. Let’s just say, out of three homes we owned outright, I’m not the one that owns any of those. He does.

At the end of the day, all I can do is try my best to be a good and loving person. I can only control me and not him. I don’t want to anyway. I can barely control myself, so why would I want to control him or anyone. I know what it’s like to be controlled and it’s horrible. Never again.

I still hold true to my wish for my ex. I wish him nothing but happiness. I wish him love in his life and I wish him success. Just because we didn’t work doesn’t mean I want him to suffer. I don’t. I honestly think if he could find love maybe then he’d leave me alone. I can hope and pray for that.

See what I mean for a crazy busy week? I am grateful that I was able to get some crafting done. I even helped my dear friend Sandy with a centerpiece she wanted made for Easter. Below you will get a glimpse into my crafting portion of the week. I hope you enjoy.

I should be able to write again beginning Monday. Tomorrow I’ll be gone most of the day and Sunday we have a huge event in the lake that my club hosts. Monday is a less busy sort of day, so I hope I can reconnect with everyone of then. I miss you guys.

Below are some fun photos I hope you enjoy:

Oh, did I mention I did a thing? You got it, I went pink. I’ve never done anything like this and it was amazing. John likes it too and he was happy that I had fun doing it. He’s awesome.

A fun little Easter project I helped Sandy with”

And this one too. Sandy said she loves them all. I’m glad. She’s hosting her family for Easter this year, so I hope what I was able to help her with will make it extra special for her.

and the backside:

Here’s the Easter bouquet I helped her with. We need to fix the bow for sure, but that won’t take long:

I was so excited to help Sandy, so I decided I wanted more cute stuff for our home, so below is a glimpse into what I made for us:

My little Easter village is coming along slowly, but that’s okay, here it is:

A little more Easter decor:

Below is something I made for a dear friend of mine. I hope she likes it.

and the backside:

And with that, I’ll be saying goodnight. I hope you enjoyed the photos and please don’t forget, until next time, Love Life++ Hugs.