Friday finally

Happy Friday

Holy heck, it’s Friday evening and for the first time in a very long time, I’m able to sit down and write. I’ve been thinking about you all, but again, life happened and I was wisped up in it’s tornado and it’s finally beginning to calm. You know what they say though, the calm before the storm. I hope not.

I’m ready for some quiet time. I look around my loft as I sit here writing to you all and though the loft is a bit of a mess, it’s still my happy place. When I sit in the quiet in the early mornings long before the sun rises, I envision all the wonderful things I want to make. The quilts, the cards, the cross-stitch and my village pieces. My mind at times becomes a crafting store and when I close my eyes I can see everything come to life and it brings me peace of mind knowing that someday I’ll be able to embrace just being home and creating.

I have a wonderful friend who just happens to be my neighbor and I can’t wait to craft together. When she first moved in and we met, she said to me, “I don’t craft.” Guess what. Yup, she’s crafting and I love it. We’re going to create some wonderful Easter table toppers and display pieces. I do feel bad that we bought everything for our crafts last week and I just haven’t been able to find time to work with her and teach her how to build our bunny porch decor.

One thing I’ve learned over the last 9 months is how much my home means to me. The days I get to just be here I barely move because I just want to embrace every detail of what I miss when I’m not home. It’s hard to explain right now, but I don’t get days right now where I get to just wake up and enjoy a cup of coffee while relaxing on the couch with the pups. I’m hoping by the end of the year I’ll be able to just be home. Fingers crossed.

Update on my daughter-in-law. She’s in a rental car. She’s back to work and she’s still very sore, especially in her back. Kaitlyn is very blessed to have co-workers who adore her and they won’t allow her to lift anything over 5 pounds and they give her the rests she needs to get through her shifts. Currently the status on her car is, Tesla will be taking apart the entire back of the car to ensure nothing internally is damaged. I don’t get how Tesla’s are built entirely, but they need to make sure something with the battery isn’t cracked.

When you look at her car and you see photos of the other car that hit her, all I can say is, Tesla is well built. I’m not an electric car kinda gal, but that car Kaitlyn has, survived pretty well compared to the other car. The car that hit her was an Audi and it’s missing the front grill and the lights and of course, the Audi symbol that is displayed on the grill. I sure hope the lady that hit her is doing okay.

Today I finally got all my health insurance issues fixed and I’m beyond grateful. These past couple of months have been so stressful. I had to miss a procedure and some of my medication has flipped a switch and it’s made me lethargic and spacey. I sent a MyChart message to my doctor and now I’m hoping he can come up with a game plan before my visit with him on the 1st.

I am finally scheduled for the ESOPHAGOGASTRODUODENOSCOPY (EGD) on March 25th, thank goodness. I’m currently on 80 mg. of PRILOSEC a day and that’s not even close to being good for me. I read an article that said long term use can cause dementia. That’s all I need. Gosh, let’s not add that to my list of issues. I don’t want to share any of my conditions with anyone, but I sure would love to get rid of some.

I have three more appointments with specialist set up over the next few months and then I pray I can let my body adjust to whatever the game plans are then I can begin to allow my body to find it’s new normal. I’ll share more with you soon about everything going on, but for now I just wanted to give everyone a brief explanation as to why I’ve been silent.

One thing I need to do is calm my jets, lower my BP and breathe. The other night I had to miss my quilting group because I began to have a panic attack while driving and the rain didn’t help. For some reason I just froze and I new I wouldn’t make it one city over from where I live, so I turned around and came home. Maybe God had his hand in it and gave me the desire to turn around, get home and jammy up and read and that’s exactly what I did.

Over these last few weeks I haven’t accomplished much, at least not the things I want to get done. I’m thankful John is so understanding and he tells me it’s okay to not have things perfect. A new mind set for sure, yet on the other hand, it sure is nice to know he really isn’t demanding at all. He helps me navigate not being able to “do it all.”

I know in the distant future I’ll be able to get into more of a normal routine and then I’ll have time to catch up and get things done. For this year, I just don’t have any drive or energy to do much, other then write. I hope this changes soon, yet, if it doesn’t, then I’ll continue taking things slowly. I’ll continue learning all I can about starting up my business at the end of the year and I’ll keep working on the suggested edits of my book. This too may be God’s will for me right now, and that’s okay.

This past week was a hard week having to be out in the rain as much as I was. My happiest rainy days are at home listening to the rain as it touches every part of the outside of my home and the my world around me. I love watching the lake as it ripples with every raindrop that splashes into it. When the wind blows through the droplets of rain water, that is pretty special.

Life really can bring some mighty storms and I suppose that’s God’s way of teaching us, we can become so immersed in everyday bumps or we can learn to let things go and just dance in the rain.

We all want our rainbows now, or at least some of us who are still learning patience do, but I think the rain is a great way of reminding us, lessons need to be learned. Life isn’t always easy, even though it’s a gift. We’ll definetly gain a few bruises along the way, but when we finally see that rainbow in the sky, problems just seem to subside, even if it’s just for a moment.

Guess it’s time to embrace those moments. It’s time to enjoy the moments we are given and for me, I need to learn to relax and find the positive in the situations that bring me distress. I’m thankful for the quiet moments I have when it’s just me and Him. He always seems to show me the way, I just need to open my eyes a little more and look for the signs He’s giving me in which I’m reassured of His many blessings.

Well guys, I was blessed to write a little longer tonight. I feel like I could keep writing, however, I need to wrap a gift for a baby shower John and I will be attending tomorrow. It’s gonna be yet another busy weekend and that’s okay. We’ll be spending time together and we’ll be spending time with loved ones.

Take care everyone and until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs