Believing in me

Happy Friday,

How are you all doing on this wonderful Friday? All is well here. Hotter than burgers on the grill, otherwise, it’s a good day.

As usual, I’ve been on the busy end of things and that’s okay, today has been a little more quiet. I’ve been able to catch up on emails and I also made sure all my bills are paid. Zero balance in the checking account until tomorrow, but that’s okay, I have a beautiful home and I’m surrounded by love, family and friends. I am grateful.

I’m still in a state of awe. Submitting my book proposal has really given me so many emotions. I was talking with John a couple nights ago and he said I’m feeling a sense of accomplishment. Submitting my book is probably the biggest accomplishment in my life, aside from writing it that is and of course, aside from raising my sons to be amazing men in life.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how far I’ve actually come in the last 8 years. You see, it was 8 years ago that my entire life as I knew it totally and 100% turned upside down. Not everything was for the better, but for the most part, life has given me a new start.

I saw my therapist, Dr. Gomez this week and I shared with her my submission of my book along with the quilt I finished. She was blown away. I’ve had 13 visits since April with her and she said from our first appointment until the one this week, I’m an entirely new and more confident person. She then asked, “do you see your worth?” I was puzzled by that question and she could tell by the expression on my face. She then went onto explain what she meant. She said that when I first saw her I would have never of said, “I’m a really good writer. I am better then some of the writers I’ve been listening too. I know writing is my path and I’m being led by God to share with the world His love.”

I looked at her and said, “you are right, I am a different person and I am deserving of this moment.”

Dr. Gomez wanted to know how I would handle it in the off chance Hay House doesn’t give me a book deal. “I’ll be fine. I plan to take either my rejection letter or acceptance letter and frame it and display it one proudly because it’s proof that I am one step closer to my dream of becoming a published author.”

Eight years ago I would have never thought of writing a book let alone finishing it and submitting it to one of my favorite publishing houses, yet here I am, waiting in anticipation for a letter and I’m already writing down notes for my next book.

“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending.”-C.S. Lewis

I am reminded of C. S. Lewis’s words as I write today’s blog post and look out at this amazing view of mine. I have chosen to write to you all today from my bedroom while sitting up on my amazing and comfortable bed. Every once in awhile I peak over my computer to look at the water and realize, I’m living my dream.

While I have situations currently out of my control that take me away from just sitting, crafting, sewing and writing all day, I still have moments like right now where I can cuddle up with Molly and Oreo and enjoy writing with a view.

Aren’t they precious. Molly of course needs to be right next to me, while Oreo enjoys having the fan blow directly on her. Excuse my messy bed please, today wasn’t a day for making it, instead, it’s a day for just being in it.

I’ve been listening to Wayne Dyer’s book, “I Can See Clearly Now,” and boy, is he a force to wreakin’ with. Wayne Dyer says it like it is. He’s confident and I believe, speaks the truth, his truth. From the time he was a young boy, he new he was different. At the age of 14 I think it was, he knew he didn’t want to be just another living being doing and conforming to what everyone expected of him, especially since he didn’t agree with not thinking for yourself.

I used to say I want to be the next Wayne Dyer, then I wanted to be more like Mel Robbins, both are people I hold in high regard because of the way they motivate and teach. Both individuals are or were successful in their life course. Sadly, Wayne Dyer passed away back in 2015, but his legacy is one that I’ll never forget.

As I listen to “I Can See Clearly Now,” I believe I still resonate more with Wayne Dyer. He was one that taught people and believed so strongly in Divine intervention and guidance and because I was raised in a high controlling cult, even though I left it, I still have a strong sense of being a spiritual person.

I find myself more and more thanking Him for all my blessings and I find myself saying and believing to my very core that He is providing for me and He will continue to provide for me. I also feel He has a plan outlined for my path. I might not know His exact plans for me right now, but I am pretty confident that He wants me sharing my story with others in order to help them. I in fact see myself eventually going on to become a public speaker in some capacity. I see myself traveling to other parts of the world to help others and I see myself settling by the water, wherever that may be.

“The more you see yourself as what you’d like to become, and act as if what you want is already there, the more you’ll activate those dormant forces that will collaborate to transform your dream into a reality.”-Dr. Wayne Dyer.

My dear friends, let me ask you this, “where do you see yourself and what do you see yourself doing in the future? Are you following your path? Are you working towards your dreams and aspirations for this life?

“Once you believe in yourself and see your soul as divine and precious, you’ll automatically be converted to a being who can create miracles.”-Wayne W. Dyer

What does it mean to see ourselves as divine? According to HovaveART.com: “It means letting go of the fear of that which challenges you to become your most authentic self. Unleashing your divine nature starts with committing to courage. Figure out what you fear and create a plan to overcome it. Don’t let fear hold you back from trying new things.”

“Your life will take you to remarkable places if you believe in your abilities and encourage yourself to keep moving forward.”-Mel Robbins.

What place do you want to see your life at say in 5 years? Me? I want to see myself sitting at my desk that sits quietly in a window nook area overlooking the ocean. Much like in the movie, “Something’s Gotta Give.”

From the moment I saw the movie, I wanted this room over looking an ocean where I could write. Windows open, feeling the breeze that beams off the water. The smell of the ocean and sun as they dance in the wind. Being surrounded by books from some of the greatest authors, all while I write more books, my books. My stories.

One day I will have this room to write. On cold, wintery days, perhaps while the rain falls from the sky, I’ll sit in my comfy chair with my lap top, doors and windows open while I listen to the rain in the background, fighting for it’s presence against the crackling of wood in my fireplace. I’ll get lost in the sounds as my imagination takes me to the places I need to visit in my mind and thoughts so I can create stories to fill the world with hope, love and a little bit of laughter.

That’s my dream and that’s where I’ll be. Not sure where is, but I’ll be there someday soon. i can’t wait to share the journey with you.

Thank you for always cheering me on.

Shoot me a text or drop me a comment, I’d love to hear your dreams and where you’ll be someday soon.

Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs.

P.S.

Thank you for stopping by.

Here’s another glimpse into my book:

I know those answers will never come, and for that, in a weird way, I’m grateful. Funny, you must have needed to read that sentence over a couple of times and wonder, why grateful? Simple, those experiences gave me tools in life I most likely wouldn’t have gained otherwise. My experiences also gave me a gift—the gift of compassion towards others on such a deep level especially now that I’m away from the JW religion.