Falling in Love:

Happy Friday,

How are you all doing today? It’s almost the weekend, so what do you all have planned? Shoot me a text or leave a comment here and let me know. I love hearing from you. As for me, I have a busy Saturday planned. There’s a huge car show here in the lake, and I get to take photos for the car club. John’s parents are thinking of coming up for it too, so that will be extra special. I’ve been really hoping we could get them here for one of the amazing events the lake offers. Fingers crossed they’ll come.

It certainly has been busy as of late, and I will be honest, life did get ahead of me for a brief moment, however, I think I’m finally catching up to it a bit, or at least I think I am. I’m just glad to have this moment to write. With things being so crazy, I am learning that when I have a moment or two, I need to do one thing that brings me happiness and joy, and the one thing that I really love to do is, write.

I wanted to write today a little bit about falling in love and what that looks like. I know it’s different for everyone, but this is what it looks like for me.

John said this morning we are soul mates, but what exactly does that mean? I’m going to say being soulmates means different things to different people. So, I’m going to try and figure it out as I write this blog.

Let me ask you: have you ever loved someone so much it hurt not being with them? Have you loved someone so much that they are truly the first thing you think of when you open your eyes in the morning and they are the last thing you see when you close your eyes at night, and maybe they visit your dreams from time to time? Would they be your soulmate, or is that simply an obsession? Guess that depends on the individual.

One of my favorite movies is Eat, Pray, Love and Elizabeth Gilbert did an amazing job writing the book. Her definition of a soulmate is this, “A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master.” This hit home for me. It’s everything John has done for me. John tore down and continues to tear down my walls and he is so loving and patient with me. He has truly, broken open my heart and the life that I have with him is more than I ever thought possible. I am so appreciative that he has shown me a path to being spiritual. Funny, I always thought I was spiritual, but I wasn’t. I was religious in the sense I did what the church told me to do, but being spiritual, that’s a whole new way of being and thinking. When I talk to John, I can be totally transparent with him about anything and everything, even my thoughts on spiritual things.

To me, falling in love is amazing. My favorite part of being in love is, thinking about John and our live together. We talk, we laugh, we’ve even cried together. We’ve had our differences and we don’t always agree, and that’s okay, because we have each other and I know no matter what, he will always be there for me in the best way possible. He’ll always be there to listen to me, help guide me and love me, even when we’re apart.

Before John, there was a man I fell in love with, but he lied to me and hurt me, and that was hard, therefore, I never thought I could open my heart to love again, but then John happened. John knows me better than anyone else. He seems to know when I need him, especially when we are apart. I’ll get a phone call from him, and he says he had this feeling I needed him, and he’s right. Most of the time it’s just I’m missing him or needing to hear he loves me, and he’s so Intune to me that there’s this vibration between us, even when we aren’t together.

“Being someone’s first love may be great, but to be their last is beyond perfect.”-unknown. I know there are those that love someone so much, yet circumstances keep them apart. Love is funny like that. The man before John, he was my middle-school and high-school love, and I hadn’t seen him in years, but one day, he called me out of the blue and that shook the heck out of my world, and while he holds a special place in my heart, it was never meant to be more than a friendship. What he and I had was love but we weren’t in love, it wasn’t true love, because true love always finds its way back home and we never found our way back to each other, and that’s okay.

John knows about this man, he said he’s even thankful to him for giving me the courage to stand up for myself and find my voice and while he was certainly someone I cared and care deeply about as my friend, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, John is my soulmate. What I have with John is something I’ve never experienced before. Loving him still gives me butterflies. His kisses still make me see stars, but the depth of our conversations goes beyond boundaries. Being able to talk for hours and when you hang up the phone you realize, there’s more you have to talk about, that is love, that’s having a soulmate.

Loving John scares me, yet at the same time, there’s absolutely no fear in loving him. I know, “Dawn” logic, at least that’s what John calls some of my explanations, but I think maybe you get what I’m trying to say. I guess what scares me is knowing I could have lost him a couple of times here with his blood clots, and knowing I’ll never love anyone or be loved by anyone the way we love each other, that’s what scares me, losing him.

I have a friend whose husband passed away quite some time ago, and she’s dated a bit, however, no man comes close to what she shared with her hubby and I’m sure she gets lonely from time to time, and I’m sure she sits in the wonderful memories she made with her husband. She recently told me when she sees John and I together, it makes her remember what her and her husband had. The more I think about what she said, the more I understand that once in a lifetime kinda love. I feel so honored to be compared to that kind of love, the love my friend had before her love was gone.

“Do every act of your life as though it were the last act of your life.”-Marcus Aurelius.

One thing I’ve learned on my journey of life is, tomorrow is never promised, and I don’t want the “what if’s” in life to get in the way of enjoying every moment of life. I suppose you could say, it’s time to get out of your head and take that risk, fall in love. Isn’t there a saying that goes something like, it’s better to have loved and been loved than never to have loved at all? I used to pray to God to please let me know what it would be like to be loved, just for a day in my life, please God, let me know what it feels like to be truly loved. That was my prayer for nearly all of my life. I thank God every day for letting me know love through Johns eyes. When he looks at me, I think I hold his world in my hands and that is a priceless gift and honor, one that I never want to betray.

“Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get the chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.”-Dr. Seuss. So, in case you have doubts or are still wondering, taking the chance at love, falling in love, heck to the yeah, it’s worth every second of every minute of every day.

Well guys, I do hope you have the greatest of evenings and I hope you go and make a memory or two this weekend. Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++