Love a Little

Happy Thursday,

How is everyone doing today? I hope you are all enjoying your day and finding something wonderful to cherish. I’m sitting here on my patio and before I have to get ready for a doctor appointment, I thought I’d do a quick blog. Today has been a bit tense I think, not just for me, but for others too.

As I sit here, I was wondering what I should write about, then it came to me, Judy Blume in her master class said, write what comes to mind, let the pen take you where it needs to go, in my case, the keys need to take me where my thoughts are.

I’ve decided to write about love again. There is so much uncertainty in this world today, especially with current events, that love seemed to be a good subject matter. I have kids that are struggling right now with things in their own world and all I can do is support them through it. Four boys and three of the four are facing things that I can’t fix, and it hurts my heart to the core that I can’t take their struggles away. I’ve questioned my ability to love unconditionally, to love no matter what. I was working on my book last night and I was writing about my oldest son Tommy and the day he was born. I didn’t get to hold him that day, I couldn’t bond with my new baby until the next day, and I can never get that moment back with him. I am grateful though that I had the next morning after he was born to be alone with him because his dad went home the night he was born and didn’t come back until the next afternoon.

When I finally got to hold my baby, I just cradled him in my arms and nursed him and talked to him like I had done during our fight together during my pregnancy to keep him alive. I look back on that morning and during my talk with him, I promised him that I would be there for him for the rest of my life. I promised him that nothing in this world would change my love for him and I would protect him at all costs. There’s something about your first baby that can’t be duplicated ever again, at the same time, I can sit here and tell you all, I love all my children the same. Seems contradictory, but it’s not in my head. I love all my boys the same, I love the ones that came from my body as much as the ones that didn’t, they are my boys and I’d do anything for any of them.

Where is this rant going? Not sure. What I am sure of is, I love them and I’m struggling because I can’t fix certain things, I can’t mend hearts, I can’t take away the mess in the world to make it a better place for them and I wish I could. If it’s at all possible to give our kids a better life, a more secure world, it has to begin somewhere, so I’m asking everyone to pass along this message, love a little.

“We’ve been infected with this idea that love is an emotion only felt between two people, but love is universal. An Energy. A contagious force. A gift. To offer money to a homeless man is love. To save a worm from the sun is love. To smile at a stranger is love. To be grateful, to be hopeful, to be brave, to be forgiving, to be proud, is to love.”-A.R.Lucas .

I’m not a political person, but I do have my opinion. I’m not someone that wants to jump on some rally and protest for world peace, though I support that. I’m one person and all I can do is forgive freely those that have wronged me, and forgive myself for my own transgressions, and I have many. When one of my children came to me with a heavy heart this week, I first felt an overwhelming sense of love for him, and I felt humbled that he would reach out to me and let me know what’s hurting his heart.

It’s been said many times, “our children are our future,” so if that is truly the case, then we need to love a little, MORE.

Well guys, this isn’t my best blog, it’s short, and a bit of a rant, but I needed to feel the keys of the keyboard right now, however, I do need to say goodbye for now, I need to head out to the doctor, but I promise to check back in later or tomorrow. Take care, enjoy your day, and don’t forget to Love Life++