Had to Say Goodbye

Happy Thursday

How are you all doing today? Well, it’s Veterans Day and sadly, it’s also the day that I lost my Granny. She’s gone to sleep and I’m thankful she’s not suffering anymore. Who knows, maybe she’s finally getting to dance with Grandpa again. No matter where she is or what she’s doing, I hope she knew when she took her last breath that she was loved and she will be missed dearly.

I was thinking last night when I went to sleep that I had a feeling she was going to pass today. Granny took her final breath around 3:30 this morning. She’s finally at peace and out of pain and I’m grateful for that.

When we lose someone, the void that takes over for a while is hard to describe. I think in some ways, at least for me, it puts life into perspective. I mean, sometimes I take for granted time. I don’t always use it in the best way possible and then when someone is taken away in death, I realize how precious time is and was. I can’t buy back the time I missed with Granny, so, I’ll hold onto the memories of the time I did have with her. I’ll always treasure holding her hand last week and kissing her forehead. I got to tell her I loved her and I got to reassure her that her life mattered when she asked, “did I do good?”

Saying goodbye to someone you love is hard enough, but knowing that your goodbye is the final one, gosh, that’s the hardest goodbye of all.

As I sit here writing my blog, I’m trying to recall memories with her and all that comes to mind right now is, Granny dressed in her nurse’s uniform and cinnamon bears. God, she loved those cinnamon bears and it was something she and I shared together. Funny, I wish I had my Teddy Bear right now. I guess I wish I had it because it was from her and given to me the day I was born.

I’m sad for the loss I feel, but I know she’s in a better place. I will never forget my granny. I will never forget the things she taught me and I’ll never forget how loved she always made me feel.

Granny’s gone to heaven. It was on one quiet day the angels came and took my granny away, but in the stillness of the night, I could almost hear her say, “Dear grandchild, I will miss you, you meant so much to me, but it was time for me to go, cause my place in heaven called my name and that’s where I’ll be, right by your grandpa’s side, for all eternity. I can hear Granny telling us all, I’m in a place of great beauty, for there are no tears or earthly cares, only peace and joy, something beyond any compare. I hope you can remember all our good times, and never think of any of the sad and always treasure the good memories, the ones we once had. One final word to you my firstborn grandchild, don’t ever stop believing in God, cause one day he’ll call you home and I’ll be there to greet you and hug you at heaven’s gate. I’ll be able to tell you I love you and so much more. Until we meet again, you’ll always be in my heart. I’ll watch over you like I did when you were born, so don’t weep for me for very long, I am okay. I am at peace and becoming all I was meant to be. Remember this, when you feel the wind blow, or see the sky and it’s falling snow, close your eyes and know that I am near because I am the diamond glint on snow, the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn’s rain, and I’ll be the soft stars that shine at night, the ones that watch over you as you sleep. I’ll be in your heart, forever my dear.”

Granny was a strong woman that with age, became so weak and frail. Now she’s at peace. I went searching for a quote or something this morning when I got the news. I needed something to bring me a little peace and I found this sweet little poem I’d like to share with you all.

“Grandmother.”-God looked around his garden and found an empty space. Then he looked down upon this earth and saw your tired face. He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest, God’s garden must be beautiful now because he only takes the best.”-grandmaquotes.com

Well, guys, I wanted to thank you all for the good thoughts and for your support as not only myself, but my entire family had to say goodbye to my granny. With love to you all, please don’t forget to, Love Life++