Love Yourself

Happy Sunday,

How is everyone doing this fine Sunday afternoon? All is well here. How was your weekend? What did you all do? Send me a text or leave me a message and let me know. I love hearing from everyone. Last night John and I were able to be in on one amazing surprise for our friend Laura. Her husband Art planned a surprise dinner party at this yummy Mexican resteraunt for her to help her celebrate turning 50. What an amazing evening that was. The look on Laura’s face was priceless. She deserved that gathering last night, she is truly one of the kindest people you could ever know.

Last night John and I got the chance to talk with Carissa, Laura’s oldest daughter. It’s funny, yesterday Laura and I went to Hobby Lobby and on our way, we were talking and I was telling her how much I like Carissa. You see, this young lady is one of the most genuine people I know. She reminds me a lot of my niece Carly. Laura was telling me that Carissa is majoring in Public Relations. Now, I don’t know exactly what that degree looks like as far as a career, but, I do know, Carissa will be amazing at it. Anything to do with the public, this gal is dialed in. She is the type of a person that sees the good in everyone. I don’t think it would be possible for her to say anything negative about anyone. She is peacable, all while displaying a kind, loving and compassionate attitude.

So, lately I’ve been on a not feeling good about myself pitty party. I just feel yucky. I know I need to get moving again to feel better, but, I feel a little defeated by the pain levels I’ve been experiencing these past couple of weeks. Usually, I don’t let this get to me, but there’s been a few times that I’ve almost told John to take me to ER because the pain in my leg an back have been a level 10, not to mention my headaches. These headaches lately have been causing me to feel foggy and not right. Anyway, I’ve been a little more vocal about my fattage on my body and everytime I say something negative about myself, John is right there, never missing a beat telling me how beautiful he thinks I am.

Last night was no different. I said something about being fat and Carissa heard it and she heard John say how beautiful I was. I don’t remember exactly what I said to his comment, but, I do remember her saying that if the young man she’s been seeing said that to her, she’d be in tears. Then she went on to tell me that she too sees the beauty in people. What hit the hardest was, when she told me that people sometimes will say it’s easy for her to say someone looks good because of the body she has. Carissa is beautiful. She has an amazing body and she looks good in whatever she wears. She is blessed. She knows she has a nice body and looks good, but the wonderful thing about her is, she sees the beauty in everyone around her. She appreciates others, no matter what they look like.

Carissa was funny, she said, “I eat, and I mean, I eat.” She just has a fast metabolism and looks amazing. What hit home the most was when she was telling me that basically, I should appreciate that the man sitting next to me, John, loves me the way I am. She’s right, I shouldn’t fight him on his compliments, I should embrace them. He sees in me things I am not capable of seeing right now, and I love him for that.

In my previous relationship, when I’d say I felt fat, my ex would say things like, “work harder, you might lose it some day, or, we’re both overweight, and that’s just the way it is.” I know I could work harder at losing this chubby, and I know I could eat better, and I am working on it, I’m just not there yet.

The whole point of this blog is, Carissa, who is only 20 years old, made me realize, you have to love yourself and it’s a wonderful gift when someone loves you and sees past your flaws and imperfections. I am truly blessed to have a man in my life that, to him, I am beautiful. It’s a whole new way of life for me to be told everyday how much I’m loved and how beautiful this wonderful man thinks I am.

“You are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed, and you are beautiful.”-Amy Bloom. Wonderfully stated. We are all imperfect and we all have flaws, yet, we are all beautiful in one way or another. I know John is always telling me not to voice it outloud that I’m fat. He said I’m putting that out to the Universe and that is what I’ll be. You attract what you say and do, so his point is, put out the Universe that I’m thin and healthy, and I’ll attract that.

“There is only one corner of the Universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own Self.”-Aldous Huxley. How true this is. The one thing we have power over is ourselves, so I suppose it’s time to get on the loving myself train. How can I love or be loved if I can’t show myself a little forgiveness and love? One more thing I need to work on and invest in, but I think I might be worth it.

Well guys, I’m heading out in a few. I hope you are doing well and please, if there is anything you can take from this blog, let it be this, don’t be too hard on yourself and learn to love you. You are wonderfully made and there is no other you. “Today you are you! That is truer than true! There is no one alive who is you-er than you!”-Dr. Seuss.

So guys, go out and have the greatest of day and simply, be you, oh and please don’t forget, Love Life++