Happy Saturday,
How is everyone doing this fine Saturday? I do hope you are all doing well and enjoying the second day of a brand new year? All is well here, I think. I am in the midst of doing a deep cleaning, slowly, but I am getting there. Next week I do hope to be able to get to the kitchen cabinets. I really need to and want to get those cleaned out and a little more organized. I know there’s things in there that I just can’t seem to find. My friend Laura was telling me she will be completely organized by her birthday, which is in just a few days. I have the intent to get to being organized, but then I just lose site of what I’m supposed to be doing and it doesn’t happen. I have so many artistic ideas running through my head and that is where they stay. I am hopeful that I will get on a roll of creating and not ever stop. I think I just need a spot that’s all mine. A place that I can set up all my equipment and have it there when I want to create. One day, hopefully.
Last night I had the strangest dream, maybe you might even consider it a nightmare. I didn’t wake up screaming this time, I didn’t even wake up in fear, but I did wake up with this sense of a weird kinda calm. Maybe if I put it out there, maybe someone that reads my blog can help explain maybe what it means? I did tell John about my dream/nightmare and he said he thinks it means that I am overwhelmed. Johns says too that I am also in need of a mother, which is something I’ve never really had and that I feel this need to help Tate, John’s youngest son, and I don’t know how to. Kevin appeared in my dream too, but not Tommy, so I wonder if it means that Kevin forgives me and Tommy can’t? So, this is John’s thoughts on what my dream/nightmare means, now to put it out there for you all to give me your thoughts.
I was in the ocean, near what seemed to be the shore, but super close, close enough to touch the huge rocks, almost like mountainous rocks. There was a door off to my right, with windows. My body was completely under water, my head too. The water was so rough, but I was able to lift my head out of the water. I then turned and looked back to see only a huge wave coming. I went lifeless as the wave covered my entire body. My eyes were open and all I could see was the water, all around me, over me and under me. I was immersed completely by the sea. I wasn’t fighting against it, I was simply there. Then, I was somehow, at the door that was off to my right. I opened it. I went inside and it was all concrete and dark. It was also all uphill. I got to the top and looked for my mother. She wasn’t there. I realized I was in some sort of hospital or building with many doors. I had to run down hill in this building. I would look in each room for her and she wasn’t there. People in those rooms would tell me I couldn’t come in, I wasn’t welcome anymore. I didn’t recognize anyone, but they had mean faces, telling me to get out. Someone was chasing me, I never saw who though. I ended up outside. It was storming. The winds were almost to where you couldn’t walk, the rain was heavy and cold. I picked up this baby and put him on a tractor to keep him safe. I was beginning to drown in the mud as I pushed this tractor across this field. I came to a building and took the baby down and gave him to this woman, a woman I didn’t recognize. I went inside and the floors were overtaken with trash and debris. I tried to find a safe place in this building, but there was no where to rest. I went back outside into the storm and I began to sink again in the mud. A huge wave was coming my way. A wave of water and I simply folded my arms over my chest. I then woke up. I grabbed my notebook and wrote what I had just dreamed about.
As I sat up I felt a fear, but a calming fear. It was a weird feeling, almost unexplainable. I must of gone back to sleep because dream/nightmare two happened. I found myself back in the apartment’s living room. John was sitting on the love seat and Kevin was in the middle of the room. He was happy and had his arms extended and he was turning in a circle. Grant came out of his room and was doing cartwheels. I was in the kitchen, wanting to touch Kevin, but I couldn’t reach him. I just couldn’t get to him. The room became so dark and as Kevin spun in a circle, he was disappearing, or maybe I was. I was in this tunnel, trying to reach up to up to Kevin and I was falling deeper and deeper into this hole. I couldn’t talk, I couldn’t scream. Everything was just spinning around me. I looked around and the hole was closing in on me, there was no room to move, no room to escape, I simply folded my arms over my chest and a calm overtook me and I faded into complete darkness. That’s when I woke up.
Two back to back dreams or nightmares, I’m not sure what they are? You see, nightmares are a common thing for me, and when I have them, I don’t have a good day, because I still feel the fear and realness of them. This time is different. I am calm and at peace. I feel as though I was actually in the places I dreamt about, it feels so real, even hours after waking up. I can’t help but wonder if it’s God’s way of telling me it’s almost over? I wonder if the ocean is calling me home to be with my dad? I wonder if these dreams and nightmares mean anything? I’m not saying I want to die, but maybe there is meaning in what I’m dreaming of? You see, generally when I’m in the ocean, I feel as though I’m drowning, like I’m fighting to get out of the water, but this time it was different. Even though the water was extremely stormy and chaotic, I wasn’t afraid. This was the first dream/nightmare I’ve had where I’ve been completely immersed by the water, and I was able to open my eyes and see nothing but water surrounding me. The waves were crashing about, in all directions. I was almost fixed in the water, like a statue, not moving, not even a little, even though the water was thrashing about all over me and around me.
Is this a sign? What is the meaning of dreams/nightmares like these? Usually when I have one dream/nightmare like the first one, I don’t have another one that same night, and this time I did. I don’t know what to think about it. I don’t know why these dreams/nightmares are so vivid in my mind. It feels as though I was really there. The details are like no other dream/nightmare that I can remember. Usually I remember only certain details, one or two maybe, but this time, I can remember it nearly in its entirety. I’m still not afraid of it. I’m not anxious, I’m not even tired, I’m just here. The whole thing is perplexing for sure. This is why I thought I’d put it into words and put it out there for all my readers. I think the thing that is weighing on me is it’s meaning. What does it mean to have not one, but two dreams/nightmares back to back, in the same night? Why is being consumed by the water not frightful to me? What does being swallowed up by the mud and rain mean? What does any of this mean?
I will tell you this, I haven’t watched any weird or horror type movies. I haven’t read any books that remotely contain anything close to what I’m seeing in my dreams/nightmares. Nothing new or out of the ordinary other then being denied again for permanent disability. I haven’t spoken to my mother in nearly 5 years and I’m really okay with that. She has her life and her son and granddaughter. When she married her husband, I became a reminder of her past. I was and am my father’s daughter. I haven’t thought about my mother in nearly three years and the only reason I thought of her then was, her sister called to tell me what a horrible daughter I am. She told me I was a spoiled brat just like her daughter, her daughter who had died the day before. I was told I was the cause of my relationship with my mother not being a good one. Funny, if my aunt had only known the truth about my mother and the things she allowed to happen to me and how her choices hurt me. If she would of only know that my mother was very clear in making sure I knew that she had two families. She had me, but she now had her husband and two children with him. I was replaced many years ago as a child. There is no wonder that my mother couldn’t be found in my dream/nightmare, she doesn’t exist in my world.
My aunt did tell me that I needed to talk to my mother, back two or three years ago when she called. I did agree to talk to her, however, I told my aunt that she needed to let my mother know that she couldn’t ask about my divorce nor could she ask about why I left the JW religion. She said that was fine. My mother was a different person now and that she wouldn’t ask about either. No surprise that I still haven’t heard from her. You see, leaving the church is cause for being shunned, even by your own mother. No shock there. I’m no longer the perfect daughter. I have blemishes on me now. I’m “worldly”. I am really okay with this. I’ve been judged way too much and I’ve judged myself to levels that I have felt like I am worthless. I’m living 2021 with the mindset of trying not to judge myself any longer.
I have lived my life trying to be what everyone else expected me to be. I stayed in a religion because that’s what my mother wanted, that’s what my ex wanted, that’s what my “friends” wanted, but it wasn’t what I truly wanted. I can’t go back, but I can go forward. Ugh, I’m getting off track aren’t I? This is a whole other subject matter. I really just wanted to see if anyone can give me their opinion on what they think my dream/nightmare meant? Why am I so calm when in my dream/nightmare I went through one tumultuous storm? Is there a hidden meaning? Am I finally at peace? Will I be seeing my dad again sooner than I thought? What do you think? I’d love to hear from you. I’d love your insight. Drop me a comment or two and let me know.
I appreciate you all and I am so beyond grateful that I am able to write and open up about what’s going on in my dreams/nightmares’ and just in my life in general. Have I veered off my path? Are the dreams and nightmares a clue into needing to get back on track or does it mean something else? Is my time here near complete? I guess only time will tell. Thank you for reading and thank you in advance for your thoughts. Have a wonderful day and an amazing weekend. May you all have a new year that is filled with much love, happiness, health and prosperity. Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++
Love Life with Dawna 
Happy new year! (From your hidden strengths article reply) Yes the negativity which ends up being the bottom line in religion as exemplified in JWs is hiding a great positivity which will come anyway in time. The simple principle is true positive cannot come from negative mouths, that is why only negative issues from the negative. With JWs the principle is the WT negativity is now well “hidden things”, at one time, being “brought to light” at a global scale.
Because they use true prophecies to then weave in lies so they can control people, certain principles will manifest, but in a way opposite of what JWs are misled to believe. They discredit prophecy at the same time. But, its meaning will come out over the WT rubble anyway, in time.
As an example of a prophecy principle still valid, the XJW is now the “sighing and groaning” “marked for survival”.
Can you imagine all the misery child-abuse, family extortion and the shunning to sometimes suicide brings? JWs are practicing WT policy, not Bible principles, and now plaguing millions of JWs and their families in over 200 countries with this “sighing and groaning” causing menace.
Good news is the many “sighing and groaning” just got a [guaranteed] free ticket in that principle.
Then JWs say they are the “sighing and groaning” due to all the “despicable things” Christendom is committing. True, Christendom is many religion cases like this, but JWs are now far worse.
Who can imagine JWs share with WT crimes, causing the misery to cause many to “sigh and groan” and yet they really “sigh and groan” over Christendom? It is a joke now.
Anyway, there is MORE going on in the WT actual agenda. They are stumbling people as well (Dan11:32-35), and slandering God and Christ as they do it. Thus, they are a big negative manifesting to discredit a big unstoppable positive.
But the subversion of prophecy this is will in time backfire on them.
In that dream you had, in my view, the tumultuous ocean is a “storm” and the former way “to the right” is not the way. Both of those dreams is like saying “just let God handle it” and thus the feeling of no fear after them. Like any storm can be managed and at some point this is all to be restored in the longer run at a scale way beyond human.
While WT could teach positives at the deepest level ever, they only use simpleton baby food teachings to give JWs the illusion they are from and with God, when they cannot be. WT, by that deceptive technique is trying to look real, but “the fruitage of those men” has a different story to tell, one of lawlessness and hypocrisy and a truly serious level of sins against God and all humanity. WT is a cult of crimes against humanity, it is what it is.
To me they are that “door” to the right which is actually empty of anything you are looking for, which “right door” was installed in us so as to still have an afterimage, even if now we know it is a deception.
They are like all human means of making anything permanently right, none of it has the actual power to do so. The baptism symbol is a symbology of death to life, and not in human hands as man is born from water in the whole Genesis parallel of creation which has the same principles in modern science. In modern science all life comes from water. Same in Genesis, because it is true. It is actually the same truth.
The water and the blood as John wrote, is also the spiritual rebirth by means of Christ who pictured both, because he is the actual instrument who made galaxies and life fully for this cycle, before he even set foot on Earth to relive the concept again, before man, for a seal given of a global rebirth of everything not just humans.
His water and blood baptismal symbology is one of everlasting life recovery for the entire Earthly life system “back to the beginning”.
His death is a global rebirth because he is the highest in the ages of all life, and now the “movable goods” of the to be bound “strong man’s house” is the picture of his power to “move” these “living goods” now stuck in death, into a new “house”.
(Matthew 12:29-30) Or how can anyone invade the house of a strong man and seize his movable goods, unless first he binds the strong man? And then he will plunder his house. 30 He that is not on my side is against me, and he that does not gather with me scatters.
Hence why Romans 8:18-22 is also a huge worldwide scale prophecy of “freedom from corruption” which Greek word phthoras means the decay of death, thus freedom from death and decay, not ethical or moral “corruption”.
(Romans 8:18-22) Consequently I reckon that the sufferings of the present season do not amount to anything in comparison with the glory that is going to be revealed in us. 19 For the eager expectation of the creation is waiting for the revealing of the sons of God. 20 For the creation was subjected to futility, not by its own will but through him that subjected it, on the basis of hope 21 that the creation itself also will be set free from enslavement to corruption and have the glorious freedom of the children of God. 22 For we know that all creation keeps on groaning together and being in pain together until now.
As I went POMO I decided only WT was the fail, not God, Christ, or prophecy because I feel WT is there to discredit God, Christ and prophecy. It only makes apostasy more real, and its negative effects, and JWs are just the latest apostate resistance (Dan11:32a), it changes nothing of this planet’s future, much less powers universally speaking.
In the big picture the ocean “water deep” is that huge birthing source of the restored world, as all the life from water in basic principle. To me it would just mean the storm of dream 1, and the darkness of dream 2, are to be overcome with no fear. It is ultimately in someone else’s hands and also another powerful being who has been through it to the full, and in the symbology his rise is a rise to coming power to effect the entire planet (Matt19:28), BUT we still have some “storm” to go through. I see that in the dream plot in my view.
But, I am no dream interpreter, this is just my speculations on the symbols and that both dreams have a similar larger plot and calming outcome. They were intense dreams, but with the end effect being calmness they are just dreams with elements which could be called nightmares if they also left fear and dread, which they did not.
They were traumatic, but with calming recovery as the end message in the power of a greater force. As bad as it is, I only can project positives for people who went through the WT hell when I encounter them. And even if life does toss bad curve balls anyway, they will in time all be overcome.
The problem here is human power of whole nations even, cannot overcome bigger problems at the scale really required. Hence humans stay in the same overall state in the long run.
WT is to be a signal downfall that this phase is advancing, and that is the last storm to get through. It is no “end of the world”.
We already know child-abusing criminals like WT and JWs CANNOT be entrusted with a real truthful divine warning. But, they can forge deceptions with the prophecy like all the other apostasies before them. Thus, the JW “doomsday” is not “coming true”, so something else has to.
JWs are told to expect any global “storm” to come in the future, as “the end” so they are being lied to for other purposes. The storm can be overcome, no matter how it may happen. No matter what the world’s future challenges may be, it passes, that is the plot twist JWs cannot understand though Christ plainly stated it at Matthew 24:6 and Luke 21:9.
Well, thanks for that other article and keep strong. Organizing can be motivating. Procrastination is what I have well organized. Anyway, in my theory JWs will become a final failed prophecy flop of the WT career. They have a long line of warm up flops, it should be no surprise this will be their grand slam foul ball flop. Then all PIMIs have to also join reality.
Then the “sighing and groaning” are going to get a look at some real justice coming on WT.
The simple truth is one cannot sin against God and people, use God to lie about to run a con for profit, and expect to “go to paradise.
What JWs should expect they know the principle well “God is not one to be mocked”. JWs should see a harvest of reaping what WT has actually been “sowing”. THAT is what is now coming on this debacle of a ministry.
Well anyway, have a good day and may you proceed with your art goals.
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Thank you for your comment. One thing that really stood out to me was all PIMI’s will have to join reality. Wouldn’t that be wonderful to have our loved ones who are still in be finally free. I do fear though, that the indoctrinations are so deep that breaking free, even when certain events don’t come, won’t become a reality. I have one family member in and she is in deep. She practices the love that they claim to have for others, not the judgmental type of love. It’s almost like she is glossed over the evil with true and genuine love and support. She believes in her core that Jehovah knows my heart and my hurt and won’t destroy me at Armageddon because he is a god of love and not of vengeance. She feels I won’t be punished. It’s those type of loving people that I feel won’t ever leave and see the reality of “new light.” It’s ones like her that truly believe they’ve built a relationship with a god of love, understanding, compassion and forgiveness. I want so bad to share with her the things I have found to be true, but I can’t, she is so indoctrinated in her belief system and that makes my heart sad.
Thank you too for your thoughts on my dreams/nightmares. I still feel a sense of calm. It’s just the weirdest thing. I’ve never felt this calm after a dream/nightmare like that one.
Happy Tuesday to you and thank you for all your support and comments. I love hearing from you
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Thanks for considering it. I guess the “spoiler alert” is that God is “showing up” as in Revelation 14:6-7 to SAVE billions.
That is the OPPOSITE of what Christian religions teach and that is how you know it the truth all this confusion is concealing. We know logically most people will meet the “good people” criteria of Romans 2:12-16 which is clear what “day” Paul was talking of. Even people who want to pursue good and are not that “good” at it have to be spared.
And with Paul as an example, even enemies who can be “shown the light” will also be taken captive like Paul, for salvation. God CANNOT destroy a good person regardless of their beliefs and that is why Christ already bought the whole world, not just for “our sins” but also “for the whole world’s”. (1John1:1-2)
JWs are the cause of all the “sighing and groaning” as misled by the evil frauds of the GB. If they stay in there the purpose of the timed judgment of Daniel 8:13-14 is “right condition” repentance, but they will “share in her sins” because WT going down is a global signal of what comes for all religion under “8th King” world government. (Rev17:16)
Their words of assurance though loving (from some, not all), are of no authority in the state that child-raping farce is in. IF they only knew they would flee, but as in 2Thess2:11-12 they are under an “operation of error” which is now a full blown lie. In Daniel 8:12 NWT 1, it says “gradually give over” to the power of the “small horn” which is the Anglo-elite root of the 8th King Anglo-American based world government but now “in progress”.
That is how the “operation of error”, such as the GB myth error, becomes “the lie” and now JWs are given over to it by God’s permission. It will form a world event downfall judgment that will amplify attention well beyond this XJW Exodus we now see.
That is because a number of years are left for the “sword-stroke” to run its doomful looking course, but “heal” (Rev13:3) into that final form of global governance. In that process all Christians will be eligible and the final call has to be one of the open salvation precursor of Revelation 14:6-7 which is the “everlasting good news” from the only ones who can be that, God and Christ and the whole Kingdom.
Human ministries, as we see now, turn it into bad news. But, that affords people lessened accountability and the only solution can be Christ arriving into the 1290 days of Daniel 12:11, for an extended “salvation parousia” offer. That is why “two grinding at a mill” and one is taken, it is also the human sheep to be secured in Revelation 14:6-7, and it is over a few final years of rival world government full global rule.
JWs cover all this up because the GB is allied with King North of the same 8th King Anglo-American elite-system in Daniel 11:32a. USSR and Russia have NEVER been “King North” nor is USSR/Russia of the same success (Dan11:36) and scale of the Anglo-American REAL “KING NORTH” elite-system world government, now “in progress”.
The UN NGO is the GB sign of who they really serve as in Daniel 11:30b, and Daniel 11:32a. The 1990 3rd UN event was Daniel 11:31b, which they concealed and adjoined as UN NGO as the “catch sight of the disgusting thing standing in a holy place” of Matthew 24:15-16 and to FLEE that apostate locale.
(In Daniel 8:13 that “transgression causing desolation” is that WT sell-out UN NGO as well. THAT is why this ministerial apostasy will now be judged and deposed by God, by using the enemy system to do it.)
Because of the mass failure of religion and mass world error, an open offer of salvation of Revelation 14:6-7 is now the only solution. Human ministries could not even complete Matthew 10:23, nor will they complete Matthew 24:14, because Christ completes his own ministry at arrival and he must be as open, positive and merciful as in his first arrival, but trillions of times more powerful. He saves the conquest of the rival world government for last. (Rev19:19-21)
Anyway, we have time this has to unfold into emergence after JWs go down anyway, no rush, just a heads up, and that there is NOTHING to fear. Fear is a tool of religion to control the flock for profit, plain and simple, just look at JWs now, they are “the slave” of the WT cult.
The final message and actuality of Christ’s coming must be actual “good news”, great news in fact, there is no other way, human ministries are NOT good news. Christian religions never did try this angle did they? No, nor will they ever, religion is a self-appointed intermediary which is completely unneeded.
By John 3:16 alone, Christ has the power for DIRECT access to a believer, he does NOT need the help of the GB or any other religious synod or self-appointed priests.
Anyway, for your future verification, JWs will go down and the events [[and timing]] of Daniel 8:13-14 is what they will fulfill for the first affirmation.
That in time leads to the 1260 days final “witness” announcement. (Rev11:3; Dan12:7) Because now millions of “other Christians” already know “one world government” is coming, that is a generic warning which will also merge to become the greatest period of awareness in all history. (Hag2:7)
This next global crisis must run, “heal” and pass, because that is when world government presents itself, in the positive global recovery.
Their “world peace” under completed world government as echoed by all the member nations is the world peace signal of 1Thess5:1-3. We have time and these are just more human words.
Thus, the priority of saving possibly billions of people is what Christ’s “harvest of the earth” (Rev14:14-16) and “great multitude” mission is, with or without a human having known this, as most will not. Salvation has always been their first goal and ultimate purpose NOT destruction.
JWs will go down at the start of a crisis phase which will pass, thinking in error “it is the end”.
(In relation to the GB frame job on Russia as the DECOY King North, the GB will soon tell JWs “Daniel 11:44 has activated!” too far into that prophecy; thus, JWs will expect Daniel 11:45 way way too soon, they will think it is “the end”, but it isn’t.
The national system “King South” is who falls into “King North” world government “power and authority” (Rev17:11-13) in Daniel 11:42-43, that is where we will be. JWs will go down as Daniel 11:41 parallel.
That is why Revelation 14 is all angels, humans cannot be the actual source of literal deliverance and salvation at that time, the human aspect of the “final ones of the woman’s seed” (Rev12:14-17), will have completed in Revelation 11:7-10, and that cessation of the final (non-religious) ministry (by complete or completing world government; Rev11:7-10), will merge into Christ’s peace arrival phase first. (Rev11:11-12; Dan12:11; Rev14:6-7; Matthew 24:29)
There is nothing to fear or feel guilty about, surviving JWs and getting out of that hell and repudiating it as BAD, is your free ticket, NO WAY would God and Christ bring a WT judgment on you, he will bring their judgment on them. (Isa66:6; Isa28:21)
JWs are WT criminals and God will NOT send criminals forth with any true “divine warning”. JWs have rendered their warning null and void by their own apostasy, forfeiture and criminal activities the whole world now knows about.
View it is a vacation, “cast fear aside”, no one who put faith in God and Christ at any time in this WT treachery will be disappointed, they have more than justice coming, they have a reward coming. Every last one of these stumbled people who naturally survive to that time, will be saved as if Christ split open the sky just for them.
God and Christ are COMPLETE mercy and justice and it pains them to see the hell the GB and JWs have put their sheep through.
Some have lost all faith, but there is a cure for atheism, meeting God Almighty in a very very good, positive, hopeful, and “in person” way. (Rev1:7-8) JW lawlessness has given the “free ticket” to a whole bunch of “sighing and groaning” people, that is why them sheep of Matthew 25 are dumbfounded, some are so new as well, they have not even read Matthew 25.
They are arriving to save billions, that is the big secret. (Matt24:21-22) But, not because it is not already in Revelation 14:6-7 and Joel 2:30-32 and Romans 2:12-16, but because of religious slander like in JWs.
Those religions are modern day Pharisee systems, nothing more, nothing less. Anyway, we have time, nothing to fear, but a little heads up never hurts. Christ died for people to believe in him and have ZERO fear. His life-force blood atonement is more powerful.
(Romans 8:35-39) Who will separate us from the love of the Christ? Will tribulation or distress or persecution or hunger or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 Just as it is written: “For your sake we are being put to death all day long, we have been accounted as sheep for slaughtering.” 37 To the contrary, in all these things we are coming off completely victorious through him that loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life nor angels nor governments nor things now here nor things to come nor powers 39 nor height nor depth nor any other creation will be able to separate us from God’s love that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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Another great comment, thank you. I love how you incorporate the scriptures into what you are saying. Someone told me, Christ died for all our sins, just like you mentioned, anyway, this person asked me the question, “if Christ died for all our sins, then why do Witnesses feel the need to tell others their belief system is wrong, hence, the preaching work.” His whole thought on this was, like you touched on, there are good people all over the world in other religions other than JW. We’ve already been forgiven of our sins, and Christ doesn’t need to appoint a GB to oversee his people. Our faith in Jesus and his father is between us and them alone, and we don’t need to have a worldly organization mediating between us and them.
I sure hope this makes sense? Sometimes, it makes sense in my head but doesn’t come out the way it’s supposed to.
Thank you for reading and thank you so much for your comments. I love reading them.
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