Here I am, send me

Happy Tuesday evening everyone!

How is everyone doing on this incredible Tuesday evening? All is well here. It was a beautiful rainy day in my neck of the woods. I love to bundle up in my sweats and craft, and that’s just what I did. The only bad thing about rainy days is when I get stuck driving in it. Oh well, I made it to and from my destination in one piece and I’m beyond grateful for that.

How about you guys? What was your day like? Shoot me a text or drop me a comment. I’d love to hear from you.

Since the incident on Saturday with a “friend” who hurt me, I’ve decided to take a mental break from the chaos and dive even deeper into my positive affirmations along with my positive podcasts and You-Tubes. They sure do help keep me in the right frame of mind. I’m getting life coached and it only costs me time. I appreciate so much being able to listen to helpful advice that is only free if you don’t do anything with it and the only thing it costs is listening ear and an open mind.

I made myself a promise recently. I promised myself I would do my absolute best to stay out of the negatives. I also promised myself I would always do my best moving forward to surround myself with people who never give up. Who look for the solution with any problem and those that take action to be the best versions of themselves.

Life handed me a huge disappointment on Saturday and I felt crushed, then, after talking with an amazing friend, he reminded me that when one door closes, God generally has another one open, and my friend was right.

Yesterday I was blessed to see a couple of those open doors and my mind shifted to hope again. Shoot, it feels way better having hope instead of loathing in the pool of defeat.

Speaking of pool. On a side note: I learned a new word yesterday. Spool. A pool that is not much bigger than a spa. Spool. I like that. Water is my calm. I couldn’t help but think a nice spool someday would be a nice addition to any home.

Back to the blog:

I’m not sure where the open doors will take me and who knows, maybe the one I thought was shut isn’t after all. Only time will tell and only God knows. Either way, I want to stay in my positive while holding onto hope for a brighter tomorrow.

With that being said my dear friends, there’s always a rainbow on the other side of the storm. God’s promise to us is he’ll never flood the earth again, thus the rainbow. I was thinking about this today with all the rain we got to enjoy. I always get excited when I see His rainbow cast over the sky. Each and every rainbow is nothing short of a blessing and a sight to see, at least for me.

This morning, I was listening to Mel Robbins, and she was talking about “handling people who hurt you.” Link below:

While listening I couldn’t help but let my mind wander back to the “friend” who hurt me. Mel said during her YouTube that it’s important to forgive those who’ve hurt you, not for them, but for us. When we don’t forgive others who hurt us, we allow a mindset of spiraling into a negative to continue, breed and brew. The hurt continues. Generally, when a person hurts us it’s not because of anything we’ve done. Instead, it’s because they are struggling with their own issues and pain. Hearing this took any and all anger towards this person who was in my life away.

This new mindset really hit home for me because I’ve been trying to figure out to near exhaustion, what did I do and why would she want to hurt me. Believe me, I racked my brain over and over, that is, until God sent many angels into my life this weekend and through today to remind me; I didn’t do anything to her. It’s her struggle, it’s her demon and her pain, not mine.

My niece told me when the incident first happened, “she’s jealous of you because she sees how happy you are, and she sees the wonderful and true connections you’ve made in your community.”

I had another friend reach out to me saying, “you belong here in this community. We won’t let you go.” And today he reached back out to say, “don’t look back, only forward. God has a plan for you and that plan I believe is having you in this community. Don’t forget, not all things are lost, until they’re gone.”

One friend in particular has been by my side through this entire adventure and she summed up the ending of my friendship with my “friend,” by saying, “We have to remember some people lie. We can’t change them, but we can choose not to be involved with them.” Bingo! Right to the point and so true. This doesn’t mean I have to hate on her, not at all. I can forgive all while letting go and wishing her well.

Done!

I just love my family and friends. I’m leaving it all up to Him to guide me, direct me and take me on the path He wants me to take. He’s never let me down and I’m confident He never will.

I loathed in my pity party for all of a day, then I realized that wasn’t serving me. I have a dream and though one piece may not fit in my puzzle of life, another one will.

I got to enjoy a glimpse into my dream yesterday. I saw potential while the light shone in on another possibility. I loved every moment of dreaming again, even though I was doing it alone, it was pretty cool letting my imagination take me to the top of the hill. I felt inspired to write and craft, so today I took advantage of being able to paint. I organized all my ceramics that need my prompt attention, and I watched crafting channels. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I’ll watch a Christmas movie or two while painting everything Christmas. Painting and crafting for Christmas that is.

Whether we are struggling with a friendship or a relationship, sometimes the time comes when we need to wish them farewell and good luck with many blessings. We need to mean it too. No hard feelings. No wishing for bad or hurt in their life. An eye for an eye isn’t meant for us to take care of. That would be a pretty tall order, don’t you think?

Making things right isn’t for us to take on. We are told we can throw all our burdens upon Him.

Psalm 55: 22 “Cast your burden upon the LORD and He will sustain you; He shall never allow the righteous to be shaken” 

For me, when I allow myself to stay in the negative I stumble and fall. I get off course, and it takes time away from doing the more important things in life. I can’t give Him my everything if I’m stuck in the murky waters of another person who hasn’t found her path to Him.

Recently I went to God in prayer. I told him that in just a couple more weeks my time will shift. I’ll have more time to do His will. I want to help others the way I’ve been helped. I want people to have faith, without living in fear of Him. While on my walk that same morning I remember telling God how important it is to me to not only make a difference in this world, and I don’t want to waste any more time chasing after the wind. I ended my prayer that day with, “here I am, send me.”

Wherever He sends me, I have no doubt it will be His will and it will be amazing.

I still have a dream. I still close my eyes and see it so clearly and I have faith in Him above.

I don’t ever want to fall back into a dark space. I spent way too much time doing that in my previous life. Now, I just want to look ahead. I’m sure I’ll have setbacks and triggers, however, I believe when we give ourselves to doing His will, and as long as we are receptive to Him, He will guide us all the way to the finish line.

Here I am, send me. Just like with Isaiah who wanted his purpose here on earth to be that of God’s, I too want to take the same path and do His will. Wasting so much time in fear of Him, I realized I wasted opportunities to gain understanding. I don’t want others to have that same empty feeling. I felt alone. I felt worthless, when all along He was right behind me. Nudging me to continue to His word.

Fear=False evidence appearing real.

No more. Life is too short for that mindset, so here I am, send me. Wherever here is, I am ready to go.

Well guys, thank you for stopping by. I hope you have the greatest of evenings and best of sleeps. I need to hop into bed and say good night.

Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs.