Second thoughts

Happy Tuesday,

How is everyone doing on this fabulous Tuesday evening? It’s been over a week since we’ve chatted. All I can say is life happened when I was planning something else. It still amazes me how time gets away from me. I suppose this is a true testament to my un-organizational skills. I do need to work on being more organized and really taking advantage of my time. One thing is for sure, a little less screen time is called for.

So much has happened these last couple of weeks. I’ve been on a cruise. I finished another book. I ordered a closet for John to build this coming weekend and I’ve managed to get a few Valentines Day decorations up. I cleaned up my loft to the point where I can at least sit and write as well as do some of my crafting. I also had second thoughts about proceeding at this time with a Podcast with a friend. I think life is happening for my friend as well. Sometimes life puts up obstacles and we need to decide, are they just challenges or God saying, “hold on, it’s not time.”

My friend and I had done a couple of practice sessions, however, something seemed to always jump in the way of us really launching the vision we both had for the Podcast.

Last week I was told that my blood pressure is at near dangerous levels again. This is and was my wake up call to stop and reflect on my path and life. Recently I had a nurse tell me that I really must step up and take care of my blood pressure. She was my nurse for the procedure I had back in November. When I saw the doctor last Tuesday she told me that I really, really, really need to get this under control. I guess 147/118 is a bit on the high side of things. The scary part is, I don’t feel any different when it’s high. In fact, when my BP is under control, it takes a few days for me to feel okay. Having it under control is a new feeling for me and in all honesty, it makes me feel off and not all that well. Sounds crazy I know, but having high BP is normal for me but it’s not safe.

I really don’t want to stroke or heart attack out. Neither of these scenarios isn’t on my near future to do list, therefore, it’s time to get my numbers way, way, way down.

On Saturday I was talking to a friend of mine whose opinion I respect in the highest of regards. During the course of our conversation she pointed out the obvious and said to me, “you need to take care of yourself. Take time to get your BP under control and while doing so enjoy reading and taking things slow.” She then said to me, “you are a writer and an author, so why are you getting caught up in every thing else?”

She’s right. Writing is my true calling and I believe whole-heartedly that God intervened with me doing the Podcast, at least for the time being. My health hasn’t been the greatest over the last couple of months and while I don’t believe God has made me sick, I think he’s pointed out the obvious and that is if I don’t take care of my heart health, I won’t be here long enough to fulfill my dreams and the dreams he has for me.

I do feel I’m meant to write. I know there’s things He wants me to do in order to help others and I know when the time is right, God will use me as a motivational speaker. It’s just not the time. Writing is where I need to focus right now and as I continue on this journey I know He’ll open the doors He sees fit for me.

I’m glad that my needing to take care of myself isn’t and hasn’t stopped my friend. She’s moving forward with the Podcast on her own and I wish her nothing but the best. She’s passionate about her message and helping others so I’m sure she’s gonna be amazing.

I know my friend and I both have stories to tell and experiences to share and I know that each of us has so much to bring to the table, however, even though our life journey’s have brought us together with similarities, there’s a reason He wants our stories to be brought to the world absent from each other, and that’s quite alright. At the end of the day we must follow our own path and become who He meant for us to be. I wish my friend nothing but the best and by far, she’s a lot further along in making a Podcast successful then I am. I’m just not there. YET!

Once my friend has her Podcast where she wants it to be, I’ll share the link with everyone so you can check it out. She does have a pretty powerful message.

Second thoughts aren’t always due to lack of confidence or a change of mind about the person or situation. Sometimes second thoughts come because God has another plan for us and he gives us signs. We just need to be open to accept those signs.

I have spent countless hours praying about my path and which step I need to take next on this journey called life and I think my answers came with being told to take care of my health a little bit better. A lot better.

With so much happening in life right now I’m holding true to my word. I’ll do a lot less while trying not to complain about the mess. I will continue my research and learning all I can about becoming the best I can be at Podcasting and YouTubing when the time is right. Until then, I’ll keep learning and crafting while helping John.

Second thoughts are sometimes a good thing and I feel a lot better knowing that my friend is pursuing her dreams without me along side. I’ll root her on from the sidelines and I know one day it will be my turn, that is if it be His will.

I love my writing and I have a wonderful book that I spent a long time writing. It just needs a few touch-ups. I was told by an expert, “your book deserves to be out in the world.”

I’m cooling my jets and taking my time all while I enjoy the feel of the keys as my fingers graze across the keyboard because blogging and writing certainly are my happy place.

I love having each and every one of you along for the ride and I am beyond grateful to each of you for your continued love and support and for being there too root me on. Thank you.

Well guys, I’ll be saying goodbye for tonight. Thank you for stopping by and please don’t forget, until next time, Love Life++ Hugs.