Monday’s mood

Happy Monday night,

How is everyone doing on this marvelous Monday? Did you have the day off? I know many got to enjoy a three day weekend since today is Martin Luther King Jr. Day.

Grant got off school, however, John still had to work. Hopefully if you were lucky to have today off you were able to enjoy it. Shoot me a text or drop me a comment, I’d love to hear what you’ve all been up to.

It’s been a long moment since my last post. Life got away from me again and it seems to becoming more of my norm, that is, allowing myself to get sidetracked from my writing. Maybe in some weird way I’m avoiding writing. I’m not sure why I would avoid writing. I love it so much. Who knows. What I do know is, I hate letting days go by without sitting down and writing.

Monday’s mood? Today’s mood has been off. I’ll be honest, it’s been a struggle day. My sweet friend Sandy whose also a mother figure to me said I should write even though I’m in a funky state of mind. She’s right, I already feel so much better with my hands and fingers touching the keyboard. The keys are my safe space and happy place. Funny, John always tells me to write when I’m having an off day. He knows me so well and knows that writing helps me clear my mind.

While I can’t go into detail regarding the things happening right now, I can tell you this, the thing that tossed me into my tailspin today have been going on for 7 years. I wasn’t expecting what I was told and while things may not turn out the way I expected, I know God is on my side and will take care of me.

I was reminded today by Sandy that I have so much to be grateful for. She’s right, I do. I have the best man in the entire world for me. John loves me and takes care of me and I couldn’t be more blessed. He’s always there when I need him and he would do anything to take my pain away, both physical and mental. He’s a good man and I know God gave him to me to not only love but be loved.

I have the most incredible sons. I have two from my tummy and two bonus boys, one of which lives with us and is growing into a wonderful man like his dad.

I have the best family and I have Aunt Billie.

I have friends that love me unconditionally. No strings attached. They love me through the good times and the bad and everything in between.

I have three adoptive mamas. One who is not only a neighbor, but a dear friend. Two I’ve never met in person, but I know they’re there for me if I need them. I couldn’t be more blessed.

My own mom hasn’t spoken to me in 8 years or so and that’s okay. I hope she’s as happy as I am in life.

While I feel like my world was turned upside down today and the carpet pulled from under my feet, John was right there to pick up the pieces. Sandy was there to remind me that no matter what happens, I do have things to be thankful for. John reassured me that no matter what happens or what the outcome is for the issue I was faced with today, everything will be okay.

John knew I needed a couple extra hugs today. His hugs make everything so much better.

I am blessed and though I may be facing another uphill battle I need to remind myself, let go and let God. When things are out of my control I believe God is waiting to see how I will handle the situation, after all, if I am to do His will I need to handle situations in a way that brings him honor. So, it’s time to put my big girl panties on and let go and let God. He has my back and He will always make sure I’m taken care of. No matter what we face in life we always have someone who’ll listen. All we have to do is pray.

“Psalm 61:1-3: Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge … “

Well guys, I just wanted to write to you all tonight to say, thank you for being here and taking the time to always read my blog. I appreciate each and everyone of you. I appreciate your support.

Good night.

Oh, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs.