Been missing from my writing

Hello everyone,

How are you on this fabulous Monday evening? Hope all is well with you. How was your Halloween? I’d love to hear from you. Shoot me a text or drop me a comment and maybe send a photo. You truly do light up my days when I receive a message from you.

I think this is the longest I’ve gone without writing anything. I haven’t written a blog. I haven’t written in my journal and I’ve barely taken any notes. I don’t even think I’ve had any ideas to take notes about. My brain has been in a huge fog this last week and a half. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to have time to write more this week. I have so many things I want to write about, I just have to stop and listen to my thoughts in order to get them onto paper, or at least into a blog. I think one things for sure, I need to listen to my therapist and set personal boundaries so I have time to write.

I’ve noticed when I’m not writing I’m missing a huge part of myself. Writing is such a big part of my life and I love every moment I get to spend with my fingers grazing the keys. I don’t even have to watch the screen to see what I’m writing. I can look out at the lake and just write. Typing on the keyboard has become that natural to me. It’s like breathing, I don’t even have to think about the letters or words, they just flow.

Tonight I thought I’d just fill you all in on the happenings in my life these last couple of weeks, but before I get to all that, I wanted to share with you something that I’ve wanted for as long as I’ve been blogging. Business cards and guess what? I got some. What do you think?

Check me out, I have a QR code too. Hehe. I think I was more excited about that then the business cards themselves. I’m a QR now. I love it. Even if it never gets used, just to be able to say I have my very own QR code is so beyond thrilling.

So I got these back on October 25th and that was the beginning of a non stop week to come.

Let me back up for a quick second. It was actually October 23rd that would launch my busyness.

On Wednesday, October 23rd, my son Kevin accompanied me to my doctor appointment in San Diego, but that’s not the exciting news. The most exciting part about him coming along was when I finished up with my doctor, I was honored to go with him to pick up his soon to be fiancé’s engagement ring. It melted my heart to have him invite me to go along and pick up the ring.

It’s funny, he had a ring picked out and he had a deposit on it. I asked him if he could get his deposit back if he found something he liked better. He wasn’t sure, so he asked the jeweler while I was seeing my doctor. The jeweler said of course because the ring wasn’t custom, it was one that they already had made up. He had only set it aside and placed it on hold. I told Kevin that my friend Cheryl recommended me to a jeweler friend of hers in San Diego and Cheryl told me that Dave, the jeweler had the best prices and that he was honest. Her and her husband have been going to him for years.

Kevin was excited about that so we took a trip over to see Dave and low and behold, he showed Kevin the diamond that melted his heart. He actually became speechless. Dave went above and beyond and was able to set the ring that very afternoon and when he showed it to Kevin all finished, Kevin got tears in his eyes. He looked at me and said, “this is the ring she’s dreamt about.”

He was right, because when they got engaged on that coming Saturday, she cried and she couldn’t stop looking at it. The ring was made for Jagger.

On our way home from San Diego all Kevin could do was talk about how much he loved Jagger and how excited he was to engage her. When he dropped me off he got out of the car and walked me to the door. He gave me the biggest hug and thanked me for being his mama. Made me cry. He then said to me, “mom, I can’t get engaged if you’re not there. Will you come to Vegas and join us for the celebration dinner.” Ummm, yeah, I’ll cancel all my plans and I’ll be there. Of course John was a little shocked and then he got super excited too and off we went to Vegas to celebrate with my son and soon to be daughter, her mom and dad and her brother and his soon to be fiancé’.

Here I am sitting between two of the most important men in my life. My other son whose just as important is sitting across from me with his beautiful wife. My world felt complete in this moment. Seeing my sons not only fall in love, but chose the women of our dreams.

John and I made the quick trip to Vegas where we had the best time. John especially enjoyed our two daughters. He always wanted a daughter and now he has two.

We were in Vegas less then 24 hours because I had to get back home to start my prep for my upcoming procedure on Monday morning. Yup, you guessed it. A colonoscopy and wouldn’t luck have it, I not only got roto rootered in the bum, I got it down my throat too. I got the double whammy. Colonoscopy and endoscopy.

Here I am ready to be taken to the operating room.

Thank goodness for sedation. I had not only the best surgeon, I had the best anesthesiologist. That doctor promised me before he finished his sentence I’d be out and I would wake up not remembering a thing. He was right. The only thing that was a constant reminder was my sore throat. Gosh did that hurt for a few days.

Halloween showed up right in the middle of everything and what an amazing night that was. John was Beetlejuice and I was an old wench. I think we made a cute couple. What do you think?

This weekend I was able to take down the Halloween decorations out front and put them all into storage containers and John and Grant were nice enough to help put my village pieces back into their boxes. I still need to put everything back in the garage and the village pieces back up in my closet, but I feel pretty good getting these things put away and of course, I’ve already begun decorating for Thanksgiving.

Even though life is crazy busy, I was thankful for the crazy. You see, my surgeon told me right before the procedures that I did in fact have cancer cells in my screening. He told me there was no false positive, however, he felt pretty good that he could remove the problem and everything would be fine.

I spoke to the surgical nurse Friday afternoon and she said so far the tests are coming back cancer free. She said the surgeon would be in touch soon and put all the results in MyChart. I still haven’t heard anything, so I’m hoping no news is still good news.

I do have to re-do the endoscopy in January. They want to recheck to make sure the increased medication dosage is working. I guess I have extreme esophagitis. Heart burn at its very finest in deed.

Once I get the test results from pathology and from the doctor, I’ll update you all on that.

Life sure has a way of throwing us curve balls from time to time and I suppose God has some lesson in here for me to learn. I have asked him for some down time soon. I need to rejuvenate and recharge myself so I can keep on going. I used to be like the energizer bunny, but not any more. I’m more like a tortoise with no end in sight to cross the finish line and when John and Grant get sick, the finish line is that much further away. of course, they both got sick today. Hope they feel better soon.

Oh well, this too shall pass and they’ll be all better. Like I said, curve balls with the occasional line drive.

Well guys, it’s time for the pups final walk, so I need to be saying goodnight to you. I hope to chat again tomorrow. Take care and sleep tight.

Until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++ Hugs.