The first lie…

Happy Wednesday

How are you all doing on this wonderful Wednesday evening? We are officially, halfway through the week and it’s promising to be one beautiful weekend here at the lake, though we have a 30% chance of rain. Rain or shine, I’m so excited for this weekend. Much needed time with John is happening for me and the hours seem to be in slow motion for him getting here. What are your plans for the weekend? Shoot me a text or better yet, drop me a comment, I love hearing from everyone.

Some of you may be wondering why I chose the title, “the first lie?” Well, I just so happened to have finished a book entitled, “Praying Women, by Sheila Walsh.” I must say, if you get the chance, it’s a worthwhile read. She touched on the first lie throughout her book, and I found it enlightening.

Yesterday, while showering, I was listening to the book and Sheila said something that struck a chord with me. She was talking about how she had difficulty feeling like she was worthy or good enough at certain times in her life. Made complete sense to me. I’ve never felt good enough. At times, I still don’t feel worthy of being loved by John for example. I sometimes push him away because “I” feel he can do better than me. He’s smart, educated, independent, handsome, sexy, funny, romantic and one of the most sincere, loving and caring people I know. He’s the complete package.

Then, there’s me, a perfectionist, a people pleaser, and though I worked hard my entire life, currently, I don’t have much to show for it, though I am not including my grown sons in this picture of me. If nothing else in life, I did motherhood right. I couldn’t be prouder of my sons.

The reason for this blog title today is based upon something Sheila said in her book. I don’t recall the exact quote, however, the point of what she was expressing was, if you are a bible reader and you happen to believe in the Genisis account, then this may also be an aha moment for you too.

Sheila pointed out that from the very first lie in the Bible where the serpent told Eve to eat of the forbidden fruit, she would be like God was in fact, the beginning of a woman doubting her self-worth. You see, Eve never really doubted her confidence in herself because she didn’t flaws, they at the very least weren’t magnified to her, or they didn’t exist. When the serpent told her she would be like God, that allowed the mindset to settle in that she perhaps wasn’t good enough.

From the beginning of time, both men and women needed to prove their worth when it was manifested by the lie in the Garden of Eden, that is, if you believe the account. Either way though, it makes sense. As a woman I have more experience from a woman’s perspective, but before I go on, I’d like to acknowledge, I believe whole-heartedly, men lack confidence too, they also don’t feel good enough, not all, but some, just like women, not all lack confidence, but many do.

From the very beginning of time, it’s been a part of our physical makeup that who we are isn’t always good enough. I fought my entire life to just be loved for being me. Even now, having a man that supports me more than I could have ever imagined, I still allow my mind to go to the dark place of, how can he love me, instead of simply being totally immersed in gratitude for his love.

“The most important day is the day you decide you’re good enough for you. It’s the day you set yourself free.”-unknown.

My dear friends, isn’t it time for all of us who are in the negative mindset that we aren’t good enough to take a step back, breath and learn to embrace who we are? How freeing it must be to be totally, 100% accepting of ourselves, after all, we better get used to liking the best version of ourselves because everyone else is taken.

God created us to be unique. We were already made in God’s image. We were given the freedom to love, accept, embrace, live life and enjoy all of the Universe and its creations.

I was talking to a friend this morning and she said to me a couple of times, “God put the desire for me to have certain things into my heart, so he wants me to have them.”

She’s right, the desires we have, though they may be different from someone else’s, they are ours and God wants us to not only desire, but obtain those desires, if it be his will. God’s will is for us to be the best version of ourselves. It’s his will that we are happy and bringing glory to his name. Sometimes those hard roadblocks we encounter aren’t because the Universe is wanting us to suffer, instead, maybe it’s because we aren’t on the right path, and we aren’t seeing the bigger picture of being on that wrong path.

The Genesis account, either happened or not, either way, there is a lesson in it. The lesson is that Eve was good enough, and her reason for partaking in the forbidden fruit could be explained that she misdirected into believing she wasn’t good enough. She may have thought she needed to be better. Who knows. The lesson I am choosing to take from it is, she doubted her worth, like many of us do today. She may have been lied to, I don’t know, but if we go with the lesson I’m taking from it, she was lied to and that very lie was at that moment engrained into the rest of us generations later.

The point is, Eve was lied to, and from that the case could be argued that she didn’t feel good enough or worthy enough, but she was. Same with us today, we are good enough, we are worthy. I’ll be the first to admit, I have a hard time agreeing with my own argument, however, I’m realizing for me to love John completely, I need to love myself. How can I give myself to him, the best version of myself if I can’t find it or see it.

Ladies, you are uniquely made. You are a gift, and you deserve to have the best of everything. A partner who loves you the way you want to be loved. A place you can hang your hat and call home. You deserve to be happy, be made happy and give someone happiness.

I would like to propose that we all work together to extinguish the effects of the first lie, we are good enough.

Take care of yourselves and enjoy this amazing life we were gifted. Tomorrow is never promised.

Until next time, Love Life++