I’m Home

Happy Monday,

My dear readers, wow, I can’t believe how long it’s been. Every time I had a plan to just sit down and write, something would creep up and I couldn’t get here. I’m back though, and I’m feeling good about my New Year’s resolutions and the plans I have in place to make this the best year possible. I’m finally home.

It’s been a long journey to get here, and I’ve had tons of help from loved ones, family and friends. I wouldn’t be where I’m at without the love and support you, and you know who you are.

I’m home in more ways than one, so today, I wanted to talk about what being home means to me. You see, for so many years I longed to be loved and this year, I’ve made it my New Year’s resolution to not only appreciate the love John gives me, but to embrace and cherish every moment we have together. I saw this quote and it brought me so much happiness and it also made me reflect on the first time John held me tight. “Home…. When he wraps her in warmth and safety of his strong arms, he feels a sigh escaping her lips from the depths of her soul as his soft lips whisper against her tired skin, ‘You’re home.'”-M.P Teunissen.

It was on our first date, we sat for hours at On the Border just talking. It was like we knew each other for ever. John says I scared the poop out of him, he said the connection he felt towards me literally terrified him. I think for me, I was so new to dating, I was more curious about why we, total strangers could talk for hours in complete honesty. It was amazing. John hugged me that night and being held in his arms for that moment, it felt so unfamiliar, yet familiar all wrapped up in one.

We took a break for a few months after that, for no other reasons than, fear. Fear of the familiarity that two complete strangers felt. Familiarity that was so unfamiliar. A sense of being home, yet not sure what home looks like. The main reason for the interruption in our newfound home was, John and I had recently come out of long-term marriages and we both needed to grow and heal. One day, months later, I messaged John, and he immediately responded and from that day on, we’ve talked nearly every day. It would be another two weeks before we would meet again and when we did, it was like going home. He hugged me like he had done so many months ago.

Though John and I aren’t always together in person, he’s always with me. We talk every day and the only thing missing from my life right now is falling asleep, at home in his arms. John’s strength, love, support and understanding is and was my path home. For me, the home that John has provided for me is a feeling of safety and security and it’s fused with comfort and peace. Home with John is being accepted, loved and respected and we are surrounding ourselves with our new traditions, ones we make, together. We have eased into familiarity with one another.

For my love, I hope you don’t mind, I’d like to sit by your side, for now and forever, as we embark on life’s journey, the path we were meant to be on, as one, hand in hand, together for now and forever, we were meant to be, as everyone can see. I am home, forever in your arms, forever in your love, forever in the safety of your embrace, forever, I am grateful for you, for your love, for our future together, I am finally home.

My dear readers as we embark on this new year together, and as individuals, I hope we all can sit and reflect on what home means to us. I never knew home, the true meaning of home, until I met the man that held me tight, kissed away all my fears and made me feel safe. I am home in Johns arms and in John’s love. I am on my journey to compete gratitude. With John by my side, and with family and friends in my corner, I am living in true abundance, abundance of true love, abundance with my true family and friends. I am forever grateful.

Happy New Year to each and every one of you. May you find something to be grateful every day. May you find your forever home if you haven’t found it yet. Cheers to all of you. With gratitude for all of your love and support, Love Life++