Happy Thursday,
How are you all doing today? I’m doing okay. It is a bit of a sad day as one of my friends passed away this morning. I was blessed to know this woman for about a year, and she was definitely, one of a kind. Some of my other friends who have known her for a long time are sharing photos of their many amazing journeys with her and the one thing that stands out from each and every photo is the energy she had with her smile. She was a rock and a place of comfort for anyone that was in her world. She will be missed, and we all know that she will be one special angel in heaven. Karen was taken from our lives too soon, but she was needed by our creator for something much bigger than what she could accomplish here with her illness. She is out of pain now and though our hearts break for her, she is home with her creator. May her body rest in peace and her spirit continue to be a light, a rock and a shelter to those who need her.
Today’s blog is about life. You see, we never know what is around the next corner. Just when we think things are going well, we may be tossed an obstacle, and it makes me think about how I will handle it. This morning a friend sent me this wonderful little quote and I told her; the Universe seems to always send us signs at the right time. The quote she sent me says this, “Durning your transformation, you might feel like everything is falling apart, but in reality, everything is coming together for your highest good. You’re being pushed to evolve and get out of your comfort zone so you can live and experience your true greatness. Welcome change.”-unknown. Tammy then wished me the best with my new YouTube channel, launching tomorrow.
The YouTube channel will be a huge new change, and I am so excited to be able to share it with everyone. John and I will be working on it tonight and hopefully, getting it launched tomorrow on schedule.
I want to keep pinching myself because things seem to be coming together in a very positive way. My blog is back on track, I’m making my body jewelry and hoping to be able to do a nice side business with it and now, I’m launching a YouTube channel. “Life doesn’t always get better. But you do. You get stronger. You get wiser. You get softer. With tattered wings you rise. And the world watches in wonder at the breathless beauty of a human who survived life.”-L.R. Knost.
Life still throws me punches and it gets overwhelming. When I left my husband and he decided I wasn’t worth half of our acquired assets, I struggled. I was homeless, I was without a dime many times, but my friends and family helped me. I went from living with Jen, to my niece Carly then with John and my friend Leslie gave me things to do so I felt okay about her help when she gave me money. I think she knew me best of all, knowing I couldn’t take a handout, I had to work for it, even though I suffered and continue to suffer from pain.
Last night while chatting with my cousin Heather I was telling her how being on disability is really challenging. Even though I make an income from disability, I struggle because though people don’t see how much I struggle to get up out of bed in the morning or how after a long day of being with friends or a day of going to events, I can’t move, I want to be more self-sufficient. I told Heather I was struggling because I have an opportunity to make an income from writing for the local paper, however, John says he would rather I not do that. He said it’s okay to keep volunteering with it, but he doesn’t want me to hurt myself or my legal cases. He says he will take care of me. I then have this little bug that crawls up my booty and I hear something my niece has said to me for a while now and that is, “I will never rely on someone else to take care of me.”
Heather then so sweetly said to me, John’s right. If he’s okay helping you, then get your jewelry business up and running, get your channel off the ground and keep blogging, you have talent, and those talents are what will make you secure financially if you just put your all into it. Heather is confident I’m on the right path and I know she’s right. John and Heather are both right on, though it’s hard to accept, but they are right, at least with doing my side businesses, I can do what I can do when I can do it. On days I can’t move, then I take care of me and on days that I can be more mobile, then I work hard. I’ll make them proud of me.
I’m getting better at being me. I’m stronger for what I’ve been through, and I continue to grow. I definitely am softer, in more ways than one. I am letting go of the hurt and the ill feelings. If I’m not worthy of what I worked hard for and shared with my ex, then that’s okay, I am starting over. I know I can do it. I’m not the most talented person in the world, but I do have talent and if I keep working at my passions, with tattered wings, I will rise again.
John is always telling me I need to learn patience. I think I’m getting better at it, however, that is one of my greatest weaknesses. I feel myself transforming and though things feel like they are falling apart at times, maybe it’s okay to believe they are coming together in the highest good possible. I most certainly am being pushed to evolve and get out of my comfort zone and I’m excited to live and experience true greatness. I’m opening the door to change and welcoming it in.
The world might be wondering what’s next or how I’m going to do it, and to be honest, I wonder myself, but I do know one thing is certain, I’m going to keep moving towards the unknown because I want to see what’s on the other side of what sometimes seems to be falling apart.
I’m so grateful to have you all with me on this journey and I’m excited to see what’s next. Thank you for reading the blog today and until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++
Love Life with Dawna 