Happy Monday,
How are you all doing this fine and amazing Monday? I do hope everyone is doing well and staying safe. How was your weekend? Did you do anything fun and exciting? My weekend was pretty awesome. Friday night I went to dinner with my friend Nancy, Saturday I spent the day working on my mitered corners of my quilt top and failed miserably at assembling them, so I put the quilt away until I can find a little patience again to tear out the bulges and re do it. I did get my seems to line up, but I couldn’t get the quilt to lay flat without those horrible crinkles. Sunday I was invited to brunch with the Tigers and that was the highlight of my weekend. It was amazing seeing these magnificent creatures. The two we saw were just cubs, weighing in at about 280 pounds, and when they are fully grown, they’ll weigh about 400 pounds. I am so thankful to my friend Shawna who invited me to join her for this amazing day.
John and I had a chat yesterday afternoon about patience, and he was telling me that he asked God why certain things are happening the way they are right now. Funny, he’s always been the one to teach me patience and for the first time, I’m sort of reassuring him, and telling him to be patient. We’ve come to realize the things we want as a couple, and now, we have to figure out to get there together. In part, some of the things we want will require a better source of income and we can’t get there with just his work alone. I told him that this is a sign. You see, while I can’t make an income due to medical issues, I can work towards making money in another way. I can write. The nice thing about writing is that I can do it on days that I feel good. I can write when I’m having a good health day and on days that I can’t function, I can lay low. My problem is, utilizing my time in a better, more efficient way. Time management isn’t my strongest suite for sure. I find my mind wondering and I get sidetracked super easy. My goal is to change this mental mind set and work harder at scheduling my days accordingly.
A few months back, I was super excited to create my vision board and I did, but now, I use it for saving the beautiful cards I’ve received. I need to re-do my vision board and get back on track for seeing my dreams and following them.
“If you do not go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you do not ask, the answer will always be no. If you do not step forward, you’ll always be in the same place.” What I want is very much attainable, with a lot of hard work that is. I can’t just sit back and wait. I have a feeling that the Universe is telling me that it can lead me to where I need to be, but I have to take action now that I’m at the threshold of publishing.
Lately, with my one book that is near completion, I’ve just been in this funk in getting it finished. The story is there, but I feel like I’m being pulled away from it. I told John that I feel like some of the story has been deleted and I need to put it back. My editor is amazing, but he didn’t live my experience and to delete things from my book because “it’s too much,” well, it isn’t too much, it’s what happened. I can’t’ lessen the events that unfolded that got me to where I am today. I think once I go back and add those details in, I’ll find my passion again for that book. I know I was meant to write, and I have so many ideas and settings for more books, but I need to utilize my time better.
In a sense, I feel like I’m in the same place and while home is amazing and the scenery is incredible, it’s time for me to take a few more steps forward to get where I want to be, where I want John and I to be and where I want my sons to be, all four of my sons.
John was talking yesterday about leaving a legacy behind. He said he feels that’s what the Universe is directing him to do. We actually make an amazing team; we encourage each other to chase our dreams and we do have a dream of writing a movie together. His ideas with my writing talent, I will say, I think we could have a hit. I think though, we are allowing other things to pop up and derail us from doing what we need to do and for me, I need to change the distractions, I can’t allow them to keep sidetracking me, I need to focus more, and one way I can focus more is by recreating my vision board and that is on the top of my list for this week.
I must keep going, and though my steps may get a little harder, I won’t stop. I know that once I reach the top, the view will be amazing. I am very blessed to have the support system that I have. I get comments all the time from my readers telling me to keep writing, so I figure, I must be doing something right. I have no doubt that I can write. I have no doubt that I can make a difference in this life, I just have to clear the fog from my mind and do it.
“Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm.”-Winston Churchill. Guys, it’s okay to stumble, fall and even fail, as long as we don’t lose our drive to be the best we can be.
I know we all have potential to get where we not only need to be but want to be, we just have to be willing to not only work towards our goals, but keep the vision, the dream the desire alive. As I sit here writing this blog, my mind wanders to the time I’ve wasted and then, I get frustrated with myself and realize, I can’t buy back the time I’ve squandered, I can only move forward and try and use each moment to the best of my ability. “Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can’t own it, but you can use it. You can’t keep it, but you can spend it. Once you’ve lost it, you can never get it back.”-Harvey Mackay. Powerful perspective on how valuable and precious time is.
My goal is, not to worry and think too hard on the time I haven’t spent well, but instead, I’m going to focus on the time I have left on this planet and use it to make a difference. I am not going to allow myself to feel guilty for sitting all day writing, that is my job, that is my passion and that is my dream. I might not get money for what I do, but that’s okay, it’s not always about the money, instead, it’s about the journey. If it is God’s will, then writing will become my source of income, and if it’s not his will, then he will guide me in the diction to get on the path of where he wants me to be.
Well guys, that’s all I have for now, but I want to leave you with this thought. “Life teaches us to make good use of time, while time teaches us to value life.” I’m told that nobody ever says I wish I would have spent more time at the office on their death bed, instead, they say, I wish I would have spent more time with friends and family, or I wish I would have taken that trip, or whatever it is they wished they would have done. I guess what I’m trying to say is, treasure those little moments, take advantage of your free time, even if it means, sitting on your patio listening to the birds sing. Simply, don’t ever forget, Love Life++
Love Life with Dawna 