Batteries

Happy Friday,

How are you all doing? The weekend is sneaking up on us quickly. I’m super excited for the weekend, cause when the weekend is over, I get my golf cart on Monday afternoon. I can hardly wait to see it. I have an important doctors appointment too, but then I get my cart. What are your plans for the weekend? Anything fun planned, or are you just going to lay low and enjoy some peace and quiet? Shoot me a text or leave me a comment, I love hearing from you all.

I am super excited to share a positive affirmation I read the other day. It really motivated me and hit home. “When a flashlight grows dim or quits working, do you just throw it away? Of course not. You change the batteries. When a person messes up or finds themselves in a dark place, do you cast them aside? Of course not! You help them change their batteries. Some need AA…attention and affection, and some need AAA…attention, affection, and acceptance; some need C…compassion; some need D…direction. And if they still don’t seem to shine…. simply sit with them quietly and share your light.” I have felt like the flashlight that stopped working and was thrown away. Have you ever felt that?

I know a couple of you have. I know a couple people that have never read my blog that feel like they’ve been tossed out. It’s a sad place to be. I also know what it’s like to be given light by others. We are like batteries. We all need attention, affection, acceptance, compaasion and direction at one time or another. Sometimes we simply need someone to be our light at then end of the tunnel.

Most of my life, I’ve felt like I was climbing a mountain and I never could quite make it to the top. I felt as though I was barely holding on. I could feel my feet slipping from under me. I felt at times, that I only existed, almost like I was put on a shelf and forgotten. It’s a feeling that can’t be described when you wake up one day and realize that those that professed to be your friend have abandoned you because you have fallen. My whole life I was taught that we were to be like Jesus. “Love your neighbor as yourslf.”-Mark 12:31. I am thankful to those that sat by my side and shined their light on my darkest moments.

When we hit a dark moment in our lives, it shouldn’t define us, should it? I sit here and wonder, if we, or I just took the time to seek out those I know that are going through difficulties to see what I can do to make their day a little brighter. I was told today that someone that I know is not herself. She is in a hospital and her life has lost all quality. She sleeps most of the time and when she is awake, her thought process and speech is of someone we don’t know. She’s lost inside this body that we recognize, but the person we knew no longer exists. I wonder if she would recognize us? I wonder if she’s just given up, or maybe, is there something inside her that just needs to be recharged.

When I think of this person, I can recall a time in my life when she was someone I looked up to. Where did she go? How is it that so much time has passed and I no longer know her as the woman she once was? I knew her as a woman that worked hard, lived life and seemed to have it all together. Did we, or did I fail her in losing contact? Would it of made a difference if we stayed connected? Was there anyone there to offer her new batteries or to be her light? I know it wasn’t me, I wasnt’ there for her.

What did she need? Was there anything that would of made a difference in her life? I know in my life if those that professed to be my friends would of shown me a little compassion, a little forgiveness and accepted me, I wouldn’t of stayed in a dark place for so long. I am grateful though, I was lucky. A man found me and took my hand. John believed in me when nobody else did. He gave me the tools to write and find passion in my blog and in my book. I had a friend that was my sounding board and she always checked in and still does, just to make sure I’m okay. I can count on one hand the people that had my back and not one of them is from the religion I wasted my life in. While I am grateful beyond words for those who stood by me, it hurts my heart for those that didn’t, but I can’t be angry with them and I can’t judge their reasons why. If I did, then I’d be tossing them away, the way I was tossed in the trash.

Whether we need AAA, AA, C or D battery recharge, or just someone to be a light for us and believe in us, we can seriously make a difference in someone’s life, afterall, nobody deseves to fall and be forgotten. I know for me, I can’t thank those in my life that have stood by me, supported me and believed in me. When you hit rock bottom to the point that you don’t see a way out of the abyss, having one person hold their hand out to you, it really does make a difference.

We are made with certain traits, certain needs. Knowing that we are accepted, by just even one person, can make a difference in how we grow or how we demise. As I write this blog today, I think about this person I know who is never coming home, she will stay in a hospital most likely until the day she no longer exists on this planet. What was lacking in her life? Did she need direction? Maybe she needed acceptance or compassion, or was it affection and attention? Could I have made a difference to her? I don’t think I’ll ever know. I do know this though, reading the affirmation about how our lives are like flashlights and the need for a new battery from time to time and reflecting on the life of this woman that I’ve known my entire life, and my own battles and struggles in life, I hope that I can at the very least visit her from time to time and be a light to her, just like those who were a light to me. I can’t repay those in my life that helped me, but I can pay it forward and do what I can to accept this person, show her some affection by showing up and visiting her, and I need to make sure I show her compassion and leave all judgement at the door, simply because, I haven’t walked in her shoes and she deserves better than that.

Moving forward, I will learn to accept more and judge less. I will remind myself that I need to recharge or change my batteries from time to time and it’s okay to do so. I am here for you all to, if you need a AA, AAA, C or D battery charge or replacment. Let’s make the world a better place and help each other in the darkest moments and in the best of moments.

Happy Friday everyone. I hope you are all doing great, and please don’t forget, Love Life++