Happy Friday,
We are just moments away from the weekend officially being here. How was your week? Excited for the weekend? I am. It’s a decluttering weekend and I’m super stoked to get things boxed up and put away. Yesterday was a day spent reflecting on my dad and his life and I’ll admit, I had some pretty long conversations with him through the course of my day. I felt especially connected to him yesterday and I know without a doubt, it’s because of him and God that John and my dreams are coming true and in full motion… I was, for the first time in I don’t know how long, able to fall asleep and sleep in peace. No nightmares, no restlessness, just a nice calm sleep.
This morning when I got up, I checked out my positive affirmations and I wanted to share it with you all. “The Secret. I hear keys. You will soon open the door to your new house, car and Opportunities.”-affirmationmagic. Two of my favorite motivational shows I’ve watched, thanks to John, where “The Keeper of the Keys and Becoming the Keys.” You can watch them on Gaia. Those two shows were amazing therapy for me and my quote this morning went right along with those shows. Another amazing thing happened to me right before sitting down to write, was when I walked by my hutch where I keep my Bible on display and a couple affirmation type books and I was drawn to a book I purchased last year, “HER,” and I opened up to a page at random and the first thing I read was, “she chases after her dreams as if she is running for her life. Don’t get in the way if you won’t help her reach them. How many women like her do you know, live as if life is nothing if they don’t become something.”-HER.
My sister in law messaged me yesterday and mentioned that she feel like she’s been running from something. That comment really hit home with me. For as long as I can remember, I’ve felt as thought I’m running from something, however, after reading this quote this morning, I realized, I’m not running from something, I’m running towards something. My dream. I’ve always wanted to be a writer and author and for the first time, I have someone supporting that dream. John has done everything humanly possible to get me on the path to becoming a successful writer. I have the tools right in front of me and you can mark my words, I’m going to utilize everyone of them from this moment forward.
Something clicked with me this morning. I never looked at my writing as a job or career. I’ve looked at it as a hobby and therapy I suppose. I might never make a dime with my books or my writing overall, and that’s okay, success isn’t measured by the amount we make, but from the journeys we’ve experienced, the lessons we’ve learned and by the love we have in our homes and hearts. Money is important in this life, don’t get me wrong, but it’s not what’s most important. I’ve had money and I’ve had no money, today is one of those no money type days, but I’m still good. I’m alive, I’m pursuing my dreams and I have complete confidence in God to make sure I’m taken care of, and I have my daddy as my guardian angel.
“Her ear craves, ‘I love you,’ from a voice that makes her feel secure and valued. She needs to be loved deeply and her inner beauty ought to be treasured, but never forget to remind her that she is beautiful on the surface”-HER. I am told every day that I am loved and John always tells me I’m the most beautiful woman in the world. In his eyes, I am, just as in my eyes, he’s the most handsome man I’ve ever known. He really is though, not just in my eyes, but in reality, he is beyond handsome. Anyway, I’ve chased a dream for as long as I could remember. I always wanted someone to love me and tell me how much I was loved. Hearing “I love you” from John is the voice that has given me security and he makes me feel valued each and every day. He’s made so many of my dreams come true. I hope to make all his dreams come true too.
John has longed for me to see my own self worth. While that’s still a work in progress, I’m adopting the mindset that until I change my thinking, I’ll continue to recycle the negative experiences in my life and I won’t be able to chase my dreams fully. I will continue to remind myself that I’m on the dream journey and I don’t want to keep recycling those negative things from my past. For the first time I feel like all my dreams are coming true and I need to stay focused on that. I’m on a high right now and feel like nothing can stop me. My passion for writing has been reborn and I’m so excited to get all my ideas written. I’ve been writing in my journal and I have so many ideas for more books. “All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them.”-Walt Disney. I’m not the most courageous person out there, I lack patience and I need that occasional kick in the butt, however, when I think about all of you, and how you’ve all encouraged me to write, and the support I receive from your comments and messages, I can honestly say, I have one amazing support system in place and the greatest cheering squad in this life. One of my dearest friends is my editor for my book and I have a man by my side that is there to pick up the pieces when I fall and he gives me the confidence to pursue my passion for writing.
I’m chasing my dreams and keeping focused on where I want to be in a month from now, six months and even a year from now. I can’t sit back anymore and feel sorry for myself and the things I’ve lost. It’s time to put on my big girl panties and do what I was meant to do. I’ll watch for the signs God gives me to make sure I’m on the right path and while I know I’ll fall from time to time, I will get back up and push forward. I have not only one dream to chase, but many and I have a life to live, so watch out world, here I come.
“A dream doesn’t become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.”-Colin Powell. Whose on board with me? What dreams do you have that maybe you’ve put on the back burner out of fear or maybe you’re afraid of what others may think? Take it from someone whose had a dream since they were a little girl and never pursued it because of fear, because someone I used to love told me my dreams were crazy. I’ve wasted too much time, too much of my life letting others tell me I’m foolish and my dreams were just that, dreams and only dreams. I’ve allowed others to live my life for me, that is until I found John. He threw me for a loop and what a loop that was.
From the moment John and I first talked, he’s been the one encouraging me not to give up. He teases all the time and says to me, “as long as you see how awesome you are, I’ve done my job, even when you leave me, I’ll be happy knowing you found your worth.” NO, I’m not leaving John, that would be a total mistake, my biggest mistake ever, I just want you to see what it’s like having someone who supports you, supports your dreams and wants you to reach those dreams. It’s an amazing gift he gives me every day. When I finish writing my daily blog, he’s so excited. He always says how proud he is of me. He’s encouraged me to write my books and when I told him I’m dedicating minimum of 5 hours a day to writing, he totally supported that and wanted to know what he could do to help me.
“A real man never stops trying to show a woman how much she means to him, even after he’s got her.”-anonymous. I still have my walls up, but each and every day I find myself taking one or two more bricks down, because I’m learning to trust John more and more each and every day. Just when I think John can’t surprise me or show me anymore how much he loves me, he does something that I never would of expected. Every day I’m able to not only follow my dream, but chase it. With John by my side, I can’t wait to see all of our dreams come true.
Well guys, we’re heading out to an early dinner and Grant’s coming along, super excited for an evening out. Super excited Grant not only suggested going out, but wants to be seen in public with us grown ups. He’s a special kiddo for sure. I love him as my own and he’s a son to me. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I hope maybe you can dream a little bit and hopefully, you even begin to chase your dreams. Don’t ever give up, and please, don’t ever let anyone squash your dreams. Your dreams are worth the journey, so keep chasing them. Oh, and one more thing, don’t forget to, Love Life++
Love Life with Dawna 