Love Story…

Hello everyone,

How are you all doing today? Anything new to report? Hey, how many of you have had your Covid vaccine? I had mine a couple weeks ago and I have my second one on Monday. Hoping with everyone getting vaccinated, we’ll all be able to get back to some kind of normal. My brothers and I are trying to plan a weekend at the end of May to get together to reflect on dad’s life. I can’t believe daddy’s been gone almost a year. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about him. He left way too soon, so spending time with my brothers will be comforting and a way to keep connected to our dad. I’ll keep you posted on our sibling get together…

I had a friend from Oklahoma reach out to me yesterday and she commented on my blog. She’s been going through a bit of a rough patch in regards to love. She is such a kind and loving person, but it seems as though the men she meets aren’t looking for a nice girl. She told me recently that she is on a journey to putting God back in her life and re-learning how to rely on him. In her comment yesterday, she said she’s praying to find the sexiest love soon. I know if she relies on God, he will give her the love story she’s wanted for so long.

Isn’t that what we all want? A story book love story? I know there are some doubters out there. My ex used to tell me that I should never expect to be loved like the women in the movies. Movies exaggerate what true love is. I know the difference between fact and fiction. I know that life isn’t always bliss and problem free, but I disagree with the fact that we can’t or shouldn’t expect a fairytale love story like those in the movies. Why do love stories, true love stories, need to be something that is confined to a movie? In my journey over the last few years, I’ve met people along the way that love their partners in an even greater way then you see in the movies. I am living proof that we can experience true love just like what I’ve seen movies.

I think if we truly want to experience a once in a lifetime kind of love, then we need to have the mindset that’s what we deserve. We need to not settle and we need not think we can change someone to fit the mold of what we want. I think one of the best things I ever done was to take the quiz on, “Discover your love language.” I wish I would of known about the test sooner, maybe when I was first venturing out on the dating life, but I won’t should on myself, instead, I’ll say how thankful I am that John asked me to do the test, even before we met.

John and I met online, through Match. His profile came up on my feed. Now, when I signed up for Match, I honestly wasn’t looking to date, or for a romantic relationship. I was looking for a friend, a companion, someone that enjoyed the same things I did. Coming out of a 30 year relationship, I was sort of scared of getting into another relationship and being hurt again. When I saw John’s profile, I reached out to him. He wasn’t like everyone else. He had a kindness about him, something genuine, my curiosity was sparked. Within moments of me reaching out on the site, John called me and we spoke for nearly eight hours on the phone. It was on our first phone encounter that he asked how I would feel about doing the test. I suppose, looking back, that was a great idea. I mean, at 50 something, we should be able to be honest on what we need in a relationship, no matter what that looks like. I took the test, and then, when I was done, we exchanged our results. I think we were both blown away how close our results were. We answered exactly the same way on every question but one.

This test gave us even more to talk about. I think it was about 430 am when we realized the time and it was then that we had to say goodnight, or in this case, good morning. John had to get up in just a couple hours for work. We continued talking for hours over the course of the next couple of weeks when we thought it would be nice to meet in person. We arranged to meet at On the Border. We spent hours that evening talking over some yummy margaritas and dinner. We took our conversation outside and it was then that we kissed our first kiss. Oh and what a kiss that was. It still sends chills down my spine thinking back to that night. We said our goodbyes and it would be another couple weeks before we would meet up again.

We did meet up again, one more time, then we took a really long break in our communication. Time was slipping by and I wasn’t hearing from John at all, so I figured he met someone else. I decided to take his number out of my phone, or at least I thought I did. About 8 months had gone by and I was going to send a text to my friend Jen. I hit the letter J in my phone and John’s name and number came up. I had to look twice at that because I was certain I deleted his name. I closed out of my phone and opened it again. This time I went back into my contacts and scrolled through the J’s to see if his name was there. NOPE, not there. So I again, typed a J so I could message Jen. John’s name came up again, so I thought I better act on it. I clicked on his name, added it back into my contacts and I sent him a quick message. “Hi John, I hope you and the boys are doing well?” It was within moments of that text being sent that he replied to me. I guess you could say, the rest is history.

John told me that when he received that text, it was right after he finished talking to God, asking him to help him find someone that would love him and that was kind and loving. He said he replied to me because he knew in that moment, God had just answered his prayer. John and I talk about this often. He says he believes more than anything that God put us together. I believe that too. I think that’s why we have such a good relationship. The great thing about our relationship is, we love the same and this is the perfect recipe for the perfect love story.

It was for the longest time I believed that I wouldn’t find love like I dreamed of for so long. I believed God was going to punish me for leaving my ex husband. I look back though and I think that the reason God gave me such a beautiful love story with John is because he knew I did everything I could to save my relationship with my ex. I would pour my heart out to God in prayer to please help me. I believe when only one person is praying the door is only partially open and there is no room for God to work. You see, if our heart is closed to his help, then he can only do so much, or better yet, he’s only willing to do so much. If both people in a relationship aren’t willing to allow God to work in their relationship, then how can we expect to grow closer to not only God, but to each other? Believing differently religiously can cause division, at least that’s what I think.

In the course of my journey over the last few years, I feel an even stronger connection to God. I’ve witnessed his hand in helping me and guide me. I feel his presence in my life. I talk to God just like I would any friend. When I was a part of the religion in which I was raised, I never felt as close to God as I do now. I’ve been able to open my heart to his teachings and see that he wants us to follow and serve him because we love him, not out of fear of being destroyed in some Armageddon type war or for some prize of a paradise where only a certain group of people will be present.

The love story as seen in the movies is possible. We must have faith that God knows who we need. We must have patience for the right one to come along. We must not rely on our own understanding, but that of the one that created us, our creator, God.

I want for us all to have love, and give love in the way that brings us all the happiness in the world. “You are the love of my life and you are the reason I’m alive.”-Love of My Life-Sammy Kershaw. John told me last night, I’m the love of his life and he’s the reason I’m alive. Our love grows stronger every day. “When I think of how you saved me, I go crazy. I’ve never known love like this and it fills me with a new tenderness, and I know you’re in my heart, you’re in my soul. You’re all I can’t resist and I need to tell you, the first time I held you, I knew you are the love of my life. I spent a lifetime waiting, always hesitating, until you, I was lost so deep inside my shell. ‘Till you came and saved me from myself, now all I really know is, I need you and you are the love of my life.”

John saved me in so many ways. He saved me from myself. John has shown me that it is possible to reach for the stars and actually touch them. “You don’t have to say a word, I see it in your eyes. As we stand together, I promise forever, ’til the day that I die, you are the love of my life. I spent a lifetime waiting, always hesitating, until you, I was lost…’til you came and saved me from myself.”

This is my love story and it is my firm belief that if you have faith, if you rely on God, he will answer you. I know someone asked me why God wasn’t answering her prayers when it came to a man she loved. She wanted to know why God didn’t have this man love her back. Well my dear friend, here’s your answer. “God answers all prayers in three ways: ‘yes,’ because you deserve it, ‘no,’ because you deserve better, and ‘not yet,’ because the best is yet to come.”-Paul E. Bollinger/wordpress.com.

Happy Thursday everyone, and thank you for reading. I hope this brought a smile to your day and I look forward to hearing from everyone soon. I love having you on this journey with me and please don’t forget, Love Live++