I’m Thankful…

Happy Thanksgiving to you all,

How is everyone doing? How is your Thanksgiving? I do hope it was a wonderful day. I hope no matter where you are, who you’re with, I hope your day was extra special. If you are alone, that’s okay too. Remember how special you are. With Covid crazy, I know it makes it even harder to mix and mingle with those we love. Today was a good day for me. I was able to go with John to his parents cabin and have a wonderful dinner with them and his amazing sister and her husband. Johns oldest son Grant was able to join us too. It was a very small group, yet it was so nice to just be able to enjoy some upbuilding conversation and time out on their porch. It was one of the nicest times I’ve had in a long time. I am grateful for those amazing people that have welcomed me and accepted me and treat me like family. The only thing missing was being able to share time with my sons, but I know they are in really good hands with Katie and Jagger.

I received a really sweet and heartfelt message from Jagger. She thanked me for letting go of Kevin and giving him to her. While I miss my son every day. While I miss the relationship we had when he was growing up. While I miss being his go to person, I can lay my head on my pillow every night knowing how loved he is. He is truly blessed to not only to have found this amazing young woman to love, he’s found a family that has welcomed him too. He’s lucky to have found the best of both worlds. It’s my dream come true for my baby boy. I love my sons. I love them both. I will forever as long as I’m alive, hold their happiness in my heart. I’m thankful for the years given to me to be their mom. If I could be granted any wish, I would wish it all over again. I would wish only to be their mom. I am thankful for the years I had raising my boys. I’m thankful for the memories we shared. I’m thankful for the love they gave me. I’m thankful for the girls that caught their eyes and who love them dearly. I’m grateful for those girls and the love they give to me. I was blessed to become a mom, not only once, but twice. I would do this life all over again if I knew that I’d be blessed with Tommy and Kevin all over again.

I am so thankful for what I had with my boys and their friends. I am thankful for the time I do get with them still, and I’m thankful they have surrounded themselves with amazing people. I am thankful for those boys who came into my life and called me mom. I grateful to all my sons, nephews and nieces that allow me a glimpse into their amazing lives. I’m thankful for my family and friends who have stuck by me through some pretty difficult and life changing times. I’m thankful that I have a second chance with some of my family who I selfishly didn’t allow in my life because of being so caught up in a belief system that made me judgmental. I’m thankful that they welcomed me back into this family and that we do have a wonderful relationship. I have brothers and sister in laws, cousins, nieces and nephews, aunts and uncles who are beyond amazing. I’m thankful for their love and acceptance. I’m grateful for John and his family. I’m thankful that I have a new family with them. New friendships that are growing.

I’m grateful for the chance to find who I was meant to be. I’m grateful for the support I get and the encouragement I receive on the daily to keep going when I want to lay in bed and never get up again. I am grateful to know the true meaning of love, devotion and what family really is. “Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never, ever have enough.”-Oprah Winfrey. These words are so very true. I may not have a lot of money, I may not have a lot of material things, but I do have a wonderful support system. I have John, someone who loves me unconditionally, I have my sons, Katie and Jagger, family and friends, and I have you. Today may be Thanksgiving, but I’m thankful everyday for all of you. Thank you for being you and for encouraging me to be me and for being on this journey of life with me. I love you all.

“If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is THANK YOU, it will be enough.”- Meister Eckhart. On that note, I hope your day was as amazing and as wonderful as you are. I hope you are staying safe and that you are happy. If you are struggling on this day or any day, I want you to know, you are loved, you are appreciated and you have a friend in me. I can never repay all the amazing people in my life, but I can pay it forward. The kindness, acceptance, love and support shown to me and the continued love and support, I can only hope to be able to show that to you. Thank you for being here with me and until next time, don’t forget, Love Life++